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7月15日 what a small small worldwent to yzps ytd wif karmilah..gt storytelling..long tym i nv step inside yz so i agreed to go..how i miss the walk down da hill to sch..a lot of things changed in dat area..da blocks have been renovated n upgraded..playgrounds all over da place..lovely..
^ ^
found out dat cikgu ahmad retired lio..*sob*..he's da best tchr i've ever had..he came tho as a guest..we gt bored n slipped out o eat for awhile..otw to central we talked lah..how secondary sch is tough..the tyms we shared during ps..our gang..she said hg sux n wanted 2 transfer to bowen..i said if she ever transfered to bowen,she'll be most welcomed..she talked bout her frens..stopped tokin fer awhile as we decided to eat..bought burger ramli n headed baq 2 sch..
otw baq,she asked if i haf stead..da moment she asked dat,a firm immediate NO was mie ans..i said i plan to stay single all thru mie sec sch frm now on..i've seen all the 'hardships' of those hu haf steads n decided dat dere's no wae im gonna go thru dat until im ready..all the fights, da tears,da emo daes..dats oredi happening to me evn tho i've no stead..so havin one is gonna be one hell of a prob..i dno wats gonna happen in the future,if im gonna stick to mie words,bt unless something happens,mie decision is gonna stay dat wae..
anw,i tot we'd haf tym to hang arnd aft da thing finished but mom sae i haf 2 be baq arnd 2 coz we gonna go 2 da expo..so had to go home aft dat..anw at homw i had tym 4 a short nap coz mie dad gonna c his fren 1st..
aft washing up n everything,rushed to the expo..mie uncle was modelling at da expo so mie dad was supposed to tape it but we missed the first clothes..mie uncle looked so white n weird wen walking down da runway..hahx..but the women's clothes were really beautiful..
anw we walked arnd lookin fer the mangoes mie mom wanted so much..realli cheap u noe..1kg fer $2..ppl carried basketfuls of mangoes arnd...
.:well.well.well.what a small world:.
guess who we met?? wen mie dad smiled at dis old makcik,i tot it was somebody's mom..juz a somebody's mom..but turns out it was her mom..da young lady bside her..she looked really familiar..dat slim figure..dat fair skin..dat curly,long hair..mind you,i wwasnt wearin mie specs n cnt see clearly..i was unsure whether to salam her or not..den i turned to mie mom,n waited whether she's gonner offer her hand..but mom was standing a few meters away n watched da woman warily..
i was lyk 'hu is she??hu is she??'..
mie mom smiled uncertainly n said 'bapak kau nyer matair lah..'
i was lyk ' what????'..n she repeated dat sentence..
i stared at her..looked up n down..looked at mie dad..as dey said goodbye..she givin an aura of wantin 2 get away quickly..dey went away..mie dad looked at mie mom,she stared back,i stared at him and all of a sudden i laughed..maybe it was nervousness or craziness or wadnot but i just laughed n dragged mom on..i laughed lyk nth really happened but inside, i was really worried..
aft dat,mie dad seemed 2 be payin more attention 2 mie mom..lyk he was assuring her nth's gonna happen..i hope nth will happen..den as we hung arnd,while mie parents was busy chattin wif mie relatives,mie bro said dis,
"for once we are havin fun 2gether..den dat BITCH,SLUT,WHORE had to juz appear n spoil it all."
i dno wat 2 reply 2 dat..
den in the taxi,otw home,i was lyin on mie mom's shoulder for a nap,i kept thinking bout her..i knew dat she's tinkin bout it n he's tinkin bout it too..da shock of seeing her unexpectedly was hittin us bad..mie mom fone rang n mie dad sent a msg to mom,askin whether she's aslp..i knew dat he wanted to reassure her dat fr sure,nth's ever gonna happen..
at home as i waited for mie turn to bathe,i heard mie mom mentioning her to dad..dad was lyk,'stop it oredy.we juz saw her at expo.it doesnt mean im gonna marry her.dun need worry so much.'..i went out of mie room singin hi ya ya at the top of mie lungs as if i heard nth..
.:bitch:.
anw watched my wife is a gangster 3..it wsnt dat funny as i expected..oni one part was..lol..
I WANNA WATCH HARRY POTTER AND ORDER OF PHOENIX!!!!
mie bro oredy watched..den he started tellin me wat happened nn i plugged mie ears so to block his voice..i wanna watch it myself..wahhhh~
i realised im gettin more hot tempered dis daes..evry lil bit i tend to flare up..particularly at home..
on thurs i cried so bad dat mie eyes were swollen on friday morn..i washed mie eyes wif warm water n soon it disappeared..i felt so bad inside but i kept quiet..jos asked n asked me to tell her wat happened but i refused point blank to tell her..
.:im mean:.
.:im sarcastic:.
.:im unfeeling:.
.:im bland:.
.:im cold:.
.:yes:.
.:i know:.
just fuck off
7月8日 L.O.V.E
HANGUNGMAL;currently the toughest 'subject' im takin!! ^ ^
memorizing korean alphabets was okay..it was fun..dis website I found was really clear on how to learn korean..it even had practice questions n its soo satisfying to get all of it correct..^ ^..den nx is learning to write the characters..which comes first n wat cms nx or wat to do if a syllable starts wif a vowel or sth..its cool..well I tried to learn how to make sentences next but dat was really hard..so I gave up..hehe..so now im trying to write romanized words into written ones..
*hahx..yunho’s voice again..*
ahem…2dae is sundae..2mr is the start of another week..haiz..on fridae played against the tchrs..n mrs yong decided to get a lil bit aggressive wen she played GS..she banged hard in2 me lyk 2 tyms n I was diiiizzzyyy~..den I gt in2 mie competitive mode even tho its juz a stupid game..hahx..im so glad I wore mie ankle guard..wen I took it off at home,mie ankle cracked like a piece of twig..
SUMMER DREAM~ hahx..i watched the mv really carefully n realised dat jaejoong looked really HAPPY in dere..he was smilin lyk so happily while he was dancing..changmin’s hair made im look lyk a typical jap guy..dno..n micky –eeek- was lyk actin cool n it was so act lorr..hahx..yunnie suddenly appeared more in the mv so I tink his screen tym is improvin..one thing I dun like bout SUMMER DREAM is dat its music is like so similar to SKY..all bubbly n typical japanese song..at least throw in some dbsk style or sth..the tune can be almost changed to sky’s tune at one point..but nvm lah..
*I knew I shudnt care..but I cant not care…*
*But If I erase everything about you, I won't have anything to remember you by* *I'll eventually let go of the feelings I have for you *There are words I can't keep inside* *I'll try to endure it, so you can leave* i haf nth to doooo~..parents out to buy polar n bro’s out to madrasah..haiz..no one to layan me..im stuck at dat stupid hp game n I nd mie bro to tell wat to do..oh! I juz rmb I downloaded a dbsk vid n havent watch it so opening it now.. ahem da sponge programme..yunnie was soo cute..actually yunnie was embarassed quite a couple of tyms coz he gave ans dat were lyk crap but I tink its cute..aheh..den gt one part where he sae he wanna put a jewelry box (punseok sangsa;I cn READ HANGUL YAY!!)) in a balloon n da MC asked y he wanna do dat..n I went all helloooo to give to someone lyk DUUUHHH!!!...den yunnie was lyk lkin at the mc as if she ws stupid..heh..dats wat I saw lah..but I noe dats wat he was tinkin ar..bet the mc was embarassed..den da guy asked if he has a gf n he said No(obseo imnida ^ ^) confidently n smiled goofily..n haaaahhh..im so in looovvee~…I haf a pic of him smilin dat goofy smile..*SMILES* ..and JAEJOONGIE was being dorky n cute wen he said watermelon(su-bak)..^ ^..a habit of his to blurt out 1st thing on his mind..hehe.. and da vid Small Trip..JAEHONESSS!!!..minnie was taking da pics of dem two n both were lyk so excited!! hehe..kyopta!!!..yunnie pointin here n dere..oh n minnie got a cold..he was sniffing wen he commented on da sight..poor him!hahx..den at the end of dat part 1 gt mie destiny MV, MINNIE n his IPOD!!! hahx.. Prt 2: Mt Fuji..hahx..jan-ken-pon..LOVES..and YAY yunnie was da first to get middle-blessing(dno wth is dat for but anw..)..hehe..n walao~chunnie so bad!!..he,junsu n jae gt near blessing which means dey are in da same team..den wen some1 aked wat bout yunho n minnie, chunnie said “who are dey?”…heeeyyy~..n wen dey were tokin bout the same team thingy,I saw jae lkin repeated at someone bside him..i tink its yunho(hehe grabbing at any chance to point out jaeho!!)..maybe jae wants yunho to follow him..hehe..u nv noe..n chunnie pointed out dis mask of a jovial fat guy(looks chinese) n said “dis resembles yunho-kun.”…lol..n CAANDDYY!!!!!!!...LOL den at da end of part 2 gt destiny MV oso..den XIAH N HIS FLOWER BOUQUET!!!! hahahahahahahaha!!.. Part 3: Handicraft..divides in2 groups wif jan-ken-pon again..awww jae is wif junsu while yunnie,minnie n chunnie is in 1 team..n minnie’s “uh-oh” is sooo CUTE!! lyk da teletubbies “uh-oh”..eee cutee nyerrr..yunho is so concentrated on doin his piece dat he was very close to his wkpiece..n I paused rite wen he was blowing so he now looks like an adorable pufferfish..hehe.. hahx..i watched back dis clip where teukie n eunhyuk was reading fanmail sent by california fans..n dey were so cute!!! “ur soo gorgeous!!” “u me same same!” “I love youuu!” “mie name is ee teuk” “ooh niice to meet u..ohh!!”..hahx..their fobbish english..LOL..so adorable..<3<3.. *coz I cant stop thinking bout u girl~* haaahhhh~ .:<LOVE> <LOVE> <LOVE> <LOVE>:. ~Ciao 7月4日 4/7: lifelit just friggin suxlol..juz heard frm sha bout the suju movie..well i 'researched' for awhile n found out that the title is
<Flower Guy Terror Event Series>..even the title sounds funny..flower guy??? hurhur..
and walao dis comment made by someone:
"The plot sounds incredibly lame... just another way for SM to make money."
and
"i think SM wants to break into movie industry now. They just want to because after DBSK "Vacation" was a success they thought they can make more money out of the fans."
eh one of da cmnts said dat dbsk is in too but i tink dats not true..if yes den surely will haf made an appearance in the trailer mah..*reading on* hmm,n heechul is the president of the dance club???hahx..funny i cant imagine him dancing except for his fav bi dance movement..dats bout all.n i included 2 pics of the movie too. ^ ^
oh found a hyukmin thread..n da pics!!..some were showing fren sweetness..minnie adjusting sth in hyuk's mouth..n b4 debut i tink,so cute both of dem posing 2gedder..
mie mood suddenly went down with juz a stupid no ans..its juz a stupid damn thumbdrive..n juz fer 1 dae..its not as if hes gonna use it 2mr or wad..n arrghh coach came 2dae..lyk F man!!!!
y the hell are so many things happening arnd the same tym?!?!?!
i feel so stressed..its barely 2nd wk of skul n oredi lyk dis..bite mie lips..bite mie lips..bite mie lips,hold ur breath for 5 secs,close ur eyes tightly n exhale slowly she says everytym i wanna bawl..smtyms it helps sometyms it doesnt..dis is one of da tyms..
y cant i juz be one of those ppl hu doesnt care?? who doesnt give a damn bout their grades or wats happening arnd dem??aarrghh...i juz wanna lie in bed n sleep but dat freaking proj. is keepin me up..
eee gerammmnnnyyyeeerrrrrrrrrr akkkuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like pulling the keyboard out n juz smashing it on the floor..
its startin to emerge
dis side of me i dunno about
i cant hold it in any longer
its like its waiting
its like im waiting
for it to happen
juz dat n i'll flare up
words i cant take back
actions i'll regret
.:it'll all happen:.
7月3日 3/7:shit happens.:jealous:.
yes I am..
u two owaes go off w.o me now..last tym we were inseparable..i try to join the converseation but u guys just ignored me..u guys are growing up too fast..didnt we promised dat we’d mature together??..u giggling in dat corner while im here minding the kids..acting as if u own the world..actin as if ur minahs in da making..makeup n foundation plastered to ur face..clothes dat r revealing cleavage..tell me is dat da wae to grow up??
at last sha returned the cd I’ve been eagerly waiting for..hahx..i 4gt to point out jaejoong,during the ending of I never let go perf,as the chairs dey were sitting on went down,joongie was startled.his body jerked a bit as he ws so cute,tryin to act as if nth happened..LOL.. n during da perf where yunnie’s button popped off,hahx..da JaeHo LOVE IT!!! n I saw aft dat joongie glanced at sth n was smilin den he stick out his tongue lyk he wanna keep a straight face..LOL…I tink he was lking at yun’s pants lor..coz he was dancin in yun’s direction..LOL..
n shit lor..i broke maz’s mp4.. T.T ...the screen broke..n I was so horrified wen I realised it was broken..maz was actin all cool but I noe she was well –disturbed- dat its broken..now I have to scrape out 30 bucks coz she gonna save up too n buy a new wan..i was friggin TERRIFIED lor!!!..nv had I broken sth dat belonged to mie fren..n its mp4!!!..omg.. T.T ..Maz, ChyeosonG hamnida..Bianhe..Jongmal Bianhe… T.T
~Day-dreaming~ dats wat I do wen im bored..day dream bout wad?? da usual.. ^ ^ .. dun nd a genius to figure dat out..
I cant concentrate..i feel lyk im in another world..mie thoughts are straying..i cant bring dem back.. all I see..all I can see is ____..its constricting..i feel worthless.. Im slackin..i really am..n im terrified..i dun wan mie grades to slip..pls pls pls.. dun let me make da same mistake again.. Im tryin to block mie mind..trying..but dat damn thing keeps bothering me..
I look around n I feel disgusted. I did nth.. nth at all.. yet I feel lyk a _____..
.:those meaningful glances:.
.:wat u are tinkin:.
.:I know:.
7月2日 2/7so the trip to jb was mostly booooringg..the main purpose in goin dere was to buy some shoes for bro..and hell,I dun even get to step in a shop I lyk..stupid..soon mie iron face began showing n dad bought me a hp game to appease..yea rite dad,buy me stuff so I’ll be ok.. *roll eyes*..got yelled at for talkin too much..hark..its mie mouth im just feelin chatty no nd to bite mie head off..idiot..
im watching all of dbsk mvs and I just remembered how cute the ballon mv is..jae was the cutest..wif his innocent look on his face as he danced..hahx..so I noticed a couple of jae’s cute antics in the ballon mv: - jaejoong puffing his mouth in the beginning..(so cute,esp. wif yunho bside him!!!) - jae putting up his arms n getting a hug frm junsu..(chaos reigned bhind dem) - during jae’s part,jae smiled a reluctant smile(so cute..i call it the dunno-wat-to-do smile) - jae’s movin his body lyk a small kid n his outfit looked awfully baggy..
n da rest of the members: - yunnie was staring at junsu during one part..(hahx mater kerow!!kinda lah) - yunnie spinning-lyk-a-top move(sha lyks to imitate dis) - yunnie cute face poking out frm the side(while junsu was singing I tink) - micky kena pecked by the stupid ‘bird’ beak n seemed irritated but was tryin not to show it..(his face lyk forcedl) - yunnie kena hit by the ballon while spinning arnd..(cute sey!! minnie was da one who did it n was laughin gleefully at the back!) - lastly jae’s cute face wen the kid refused to look at the camera..(well he cant expect everyone to be a camwhore lyk him rite??)
I lent the concert dvd to sha n im waiting eagerly for it to come back..am listening to love aft love now n wanna see dem ding it live all of the suddenly..one part junsu’s voice was amazingly sexy(to me ar..in the studio version wan not live)..
I never let go is sucha sweeeeet soong~..here’s the trans: Even if I've tried for days to forget you, to erase you, These awkward words are for you. I never let go (Never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna) Why are you leaving? Tell me. I can't understand. What am I to do? The long time is for you too. I never let go (Never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna) Even if another time comes, only you are my everything. I never let go (Never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna) For you, eternity.
sweet ain’t it?? forever was mentioned several times..i wonder can anything really last forever?..ppl sae if u put in the effort, it will..*doubt*..oh well..no tym to tink dat deep..
youth dae on mondae so holiday!!! yayee~..cn wake up a bit late n no ntbl..on wed,relief coach gonna come.. :( ..
Always dere: *~ne morrisogul modu jiwodo,juchehal su obshi to orunun ne mosub~*
suddenly yunho’s voice seems so enchanting..hahx..i wanna see da concert again n again..i wanna see dbsk..
anw,1st wk of skul was ok except for the tired body..on fridae,stupid music bcm last period instead of first..haiz..n soo early in the morn,gt science liao ler..-uggh-..
Dangerous Mind:*~I can never forget,to me dangerous ur mind. they can never stop it, to me dangerous tonite..~*
hahx..da word arrangement reminds me of singlish..
D.M: *~(you)make hell inside beating every every night are you crying wen I cry? hurt me everyday~*
wow joongie’s rock voice..alah~ nx song is unforgettable..hear dis song alwaes feel like waving mie hands up in the air as if im at their concert n dey sang dis song~..aiyah I a lot of daydreams wan lor..hahx..
*~gude obshi nan,gwenchanha jil su obnungol~*
hahx..yunho sing wan..wen I wan start new paragraph owaes yunho’s voice come jaring out..nx is free ur mind..nice leh..first is junsu rap..den yunho..den micky..i lyk the forcefulness in their voices wen dey sing the part aft da raps..
wjoa~ jae’s rock voice again!!!..during the concert,during dat part..i was giggling to mieself..all jae cud do was move his hands n sway his body a bit n dats all..hahx..
eh? love aft love again!..hahx..
Yun:*~Sujubge udnun mosubkaji woo~*
I love his woo~ part!!! he crooning dat part veri nice his voice leh..omg lookin at dat prev sentence I realised dat broken eng really looks weird wen written..hahx..not gonna bother changing it..
hahx..yunnie’s rap..hahx!!!..im sooooooo infatuated wif him..*smiles*..
Even though I haven't forgotten you, I still search for another love *~yongwonhi norul gidaril su isseo*~
nx..beautiful life..
*~I love my beautiful and ordinary life~* *~dun wanna live my life any other way*~
if anyone realized,dis song was da one dey were singing in the beginning of banjun drama: Finding Lost Time..it took me a looooong tym to finally realize dat it was actually dat song..at first I tot it was love aft love but then I look at the trans n it was different..den suddenly I listened to B.L n it seemed so familiar I searched the vids n I realised dat it was da song I’ve been searching for.. I wish to be with you forever, unconditionally. I love you so much. -uggh- mie stomach juz grumbled n I nd to find sth to eat.haiz.i feel so sleepy better go slp lah..no eating in da middle of da nite..
*~midojugil yongwonhi~*
k lah.. enuff lah fer 2dae..
~Ciao
6月27日 27/6:*tired*oni the first wk n im feeling soo tired..guess not used to wakin up early yet..oh gawd..mie ankle hurts.. i dun wanna see dat face.. guess wat? mie mom asked me to skip skul 2mr..she wans me to follow dem go jb..i was lyk “heeellllooo…in caase u havent noticed its oni the da first wk of skul n im oredy skippin skul???”..den she sae nvm for once she dun care..n I said I care..u wan me to be serious bout mie studies n u here askin me to ponteng?? I dun wanna skip skul..if once I do it,I’ll want another tym again n again.. but i cant run away.. walao juz now home ec,I was very nervous lor..ms zurainah lyk veri strict lor..den everything she sae or ask I obediently shake mie head..hahax..she veri wat leh..if nv bring any of the items she wanted,no cooking n no marks fer ya..i was lyk wth so tough seyy..den she tok tok tok bout f&n..tot it wud be one of mie options but im rethinkin..it includes 2 COURSEWORK (*groan*one is bad enuf) n a written paper wif 3 ESSAY QUESTIONS (-uggh- hate essay questions!!!)..seems lyk art is the best..but mie art sucks lor!! I cn nv hold mie head high wen tokin bout art..so wat to do????im so confused bout the subjects I wanna take..haiz.. a glance is all it takes,just a glance skul was ok I guess..science was ok..maths was ok..malay was ok..homec is ok for the now.. netball is ok..sok wan veri cute lah..she’s ok..doing a couple sprints,crunches n pushups are ok.. everything’s ok..i guess..*shrug*.. always pretending..im a hypocrite,i admit.. anw,listening to I never let go.n I LOVE it!!! I’ve been trying to download it bt internet always get stuck wan den acc. canceled..n gt Jigumchorom too..now im searching will you be my girlfriend?...i tried ares but dat thang doesn’t even get connected at all!!!..i cant find it anywhere else..haiz..i wanna dat “be mie girl..juz be mie girl..” song..but I dno the song title..i cud try to read it but da disc returned liao..haiz..i tink its dat song I’ve been trying to search for but nt sure..~Yongwonhi~..hahx..i LOVE dat word!! it makes me tink of true love the minute I hear it..hahx.. wat can i do?i dun wan any of it to be known,even suspectingly..not to u..never to u.. too young to tink of true love lahs..now cn oni get puppy love..hahx..i dno wat crap I typin..so mom bought some sweet stuffs frm polar n its yummy!! gonna have some of it again!! hehe..me 24 h eating wen at home.. im sorry if i hurt u in any way ~Ciao 6月25日 BULLSHIT MANI wanna cry seriously..
wat the hell man?!?! I showed u mie report lyk the dae aft last dae of skul..u were smilin n saying nvm nvm n NOW here u are calling me stupid????u cant use any other DAMN word???
I TOLD u..i EXPLAINED to u dat mie malay is lyk dat coz of dat stupid FUCKING project!!!!! u said dat tym its ok..YOU SAID ITS OKAY!!! n now u telling me I shud be ashamed to be called a malay?!?!?
wat the hell is WRONG WIF YA?? split personalities?!?!im so fuckin angry rite now.. u told one thing b4 n now sae another thing!!
u tink u so CLEVER izzit?? if u so clever u wudnt have &%(*$$#$^%$^&%#^ !!!! CLEVER ppl DON’T &%(*$$#$^%$^&%#^ !!!
I said DAT coz I TOLD u b4 n u ACCUSED me of lettin u noe last min so I cud enjoy the hols privileges..i oredy showed u n u accused me~..im feeling so sad I cud bawl rite now..u even told me to turn off mie comp..
i oredy promised to do better..wat more do u want??proof?PROOF? are u sick or WAD?? its oni da first dae of skul wad PROOF am I suppose to show?!?!
now im lyk sooo not in the mood for ANYTHING not even DBSK can cheer me up..
DAMN IT!!
6月23日 DBSK conquered mie mind!!skul's starting in lyk 2 daes..n im soooooooooooo not ready for skul..haiz..nx term serious study liao lers..back to studying lyk psle daes..GOD!!!
anw, I WANNA SEE THE DBSK AD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! harummphh..i wanna see mie yunnie..sha sae he hansem lahhhhh~~~~~~~~~...haiz..its on channel 8..da channel i've been avoiding all this while.. :( ... hope i get lucky wen i tuned in..
and though jos probably wont see dis,but, THX FOR THE RISING SUN CONCERT DVD!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was spectacular!!!n made me more jealous towards those hu were lucky enough to have watched it..n the first performance,Tonight,was lyk perfect!!!! changmin's part where he go ahhhhhhhh~~whoa whoa whoa~~(sth lyk dat) was perfectly in tune!!! i was lyk wahhh~best tonight perf lor..but jae's voice a bit too soft..he cudnt participate in the dancing in the upbeat songs so he just stood n moved his arms a bit..hahx..
it was soo lucky i just gt the songs in dat album so i was able to enjoy it..
hug perf..jae was cute..he had his fingers do the peace sign while he bent to the side..miduhyo perf was swit..da crowd shouted "MIDUHYO!" every once in a while..n at the end dey took out sth n i rmb a perf where dey did da same thing but jae or junsu(i cnt rmb) struggled to take his rose n it dropped or sth..hahx..n another member didnt have his rose wif him..hahx..it was a long tym ago i wached dat vid so cnt rmb dat well..
n DANCE PERFORMANCE!!! YUNNNNNNNNHHHOOOOOO!!!!!! was mighty charming,full of charisma!!n i wondered y dat song n dance steps were familiar n i realised he performed dat dance on xman too ep 152...but dat was later..n micky solo..Fox Rain or Sun Shower..niiiiiccceee~
de song i wanna hold you..dere was an xtra gerl dno wat the hell she was dere for..she entered da stage den sat on da chair bside minnie den went off stage.i was lyk ?????..errm wat was she for????...
n junsu's solo was dancing to all eise which he did for xman too..he sang da song too..den gt one one part where the song goes "what u've done~"..n junsu pronounced da done as dont~..it was so funny!!! he repeated it several tyms n mie dad n i was laughing lyk hell (dad was in da room at dat tym)..eunhyuk was a special guest n rapped wif junsu..n joongie sang foosteps similar to da xman perf too..
n mie currently fav song Love after Love..the perf walao~ using sha's words heart pain lah...dey sang while sitting on chairs but dere r lyk 2 gerls per person n dey dancing sooo-ugggghhh-...den at de end when dey ended da song n just wen da lights went out i saw one gerl hugging micky!!!..i was wtf get ya hands off him!!!!...hahx mom called me a psycho..
den oso gt one song where dere's girls dancing n dbsk had to hold hands wif dem..i dno da song name its all in hangul..anw da best part of da perf was dat YUNNIE'S PANTS WASNT BUTTONED!!! MUAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!either the button popped off or he forgot to button up..HAHAHAHAHA..i noticed it wen aft singin his part he went back n pulled his pants up..HAHA..dats wen i saw da top of the pants open..HAHAX..den when dey had to hold hands wif the girls again,i saw da gerl holdin yunnie's hand blush..hahx..it was 4 a moment oni..she smiled den made her face straight again..den dere was a jaeho moment..wen yunnie went up to the front to start singing,he n jae made eye contact n yunnie smiled! it was so cute..i tink jae noticed yunnie's pants n he looked at yunnie n yunnie was feeling so paiseh..
den aft dat perf was the commentary n yunnie ran backstage n chunnie asked where he goin n chuckled..den yunnie came baq n chunnie asked him..he said his pants got problem..den junsu asked da crowd whether dey wud rather yunho's pants down(or sth lyk dat coz da crowd screamed excitedly)..dere was a subbed vid of dat part in youtube n i watched it b4 but cant really rmb da specific trans..
rising sun was great! it was a remix n i lyk it..den dere was the insa mv..ss00 boring..i skipped it..n den one..mie lil princess i skipped dat too..den drive as closing song..yunho was all excited cant stop saying jump jump jump..its a great song..if u get into da song dat is..
and da end..da song dat was played while credits rolled was unforgettable..i love dat song..it was a pity dey didnt performed it..their fans were singin along..
dere was a making of dvd..uz shoed em backstage n eunhyukkie getting his hair done n so..n yunho was so cute talkin wif alll teh staff n i juz rmb..his last two fingers were bandaged 2gedder..i wonder wat happened..maybe it was sprain or sth..eunhyuk i tink asked yunho wat happened 2 his hand n yunho said ah nth nth n hid his hand bhind his back..aww didnt want his fans worrying..but he's ok now..dat was long tym ago..
DBSK SARANGHAE!!!
DBSK HWAITING!!!
-end of review-
hahx..just lyk i told sha..iM FALLING HEAD OVER HEELS WITH DBSK ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!!
im watching all of their vids over n over again..
haiz..i nv tot i wud be sucha groupie..
*smiles*
~Yunho I Love You hoo whoa~
~Yunho I Love You hoo woohooo~
~Yunho I Love You hoo woohoo~
~Saranghamnida haaa~
hahx..
how am i gonna concentrate on skul now dat dbsk is always in mie thoughts??????
haiz..
stupid skul
n sth's wrong wif mie internet connection..everytym i wanna watched vids sha embedded it keeps loosing connection..stooopid lah..
im left wif two maths ppr..gonna finish it 2dae..mom n dad went fishing..*roll eyes*
but its a gd thing too..maybe dey'd get a sea bass n mom wud cook swet n sour again..YUM!!
ok now im starving~i havent eat breakfast..so better eat sth b4 i get stomachaches..
~ciao
p.s: <<i love you!!!!>>
<<thx!!>>
6月16日 15/6,Fri:~ >.< ~so im back frm mie couz's hse..all we did dere was lyk any other bdae party we had..sang bdae song,eat bdae cake,opened the presents..den wats reaaallyy special bout dat party was dat we had a storytelling session..about any topic..but ahem for us kids oni..adults were in the living room n kids are in mie couz's room..its biigg~no surprise all mie relatives are rich $$..
anw we were all in dat room,chatting nonsense at first den when the rest of us fell in2 a lapse of silence but mie couz,erynn, she was telling bout a scary encounter her mom had..den we bcm interested n started da ghost story telling session..we dimmed the lights n sat on da floor n i made sure i was srrounded by pillows so i dun feel empty on one side..so we settle into telling mode..well bout erynn's mom's encounter,here how it goes:
erynn's mom,cik ani,was drying some clothes on poles lah..but she 4gt bout it n left da poles hanging outside the kitchen lyk dat until da nx morn..u see,dere's dis taboo bout hanging bamboo poles outside overnight..its said dat if hang dem outside,at nite dere will be an uninvited guest playing wif the poles..she likes to sit n rock on the poles n rockin on the poles will make a lot of noise.. so wat happened is dat cik ani woke up aft hearing the noise..den she went to investigate n she saw a dark shadow on the poles..she was scared outta her wits but she juz returned to her room n made sure her kids are ok n everything n went back to bed..erynn said its lucky it was almost sunrise if not,it would have stayed dere for a long tym..nx morn,cik ani quickly brought in the poles n acted as if nth happened..but she warned erynn dat if she shud ever hang clothes on poles outside,better bring dem in b4 goin 2 slp..dats wen erynn asked y n cik ani told her wat happened..her brother,zulhairy,was scared bcoz on dat nite,he was slpin in cik ani's room on the floor,rite bside the window..u see, the master bedroom is such dat the kitchen's window,where u hang the poles outside,is facing the bedroom's window..yah n he said he was lucky he didnt wake up if not he wud have peed in his pants..
dere were lots more lah n dere was one where another aunt of mine,saw the uninvited guest rite on TOP OF HER WARDROBE!!!! i was lyk WTH MAN!!! she fainted n mie uncle woke her up n recited some verse to make her calm down.. well actually mie aunt's hse has a lot of happenings,mie mom alwaes sae..its bcoz she keeps too much statues of scary lookin ppl..n her dining table has carvings of ppl's face n its scary,i tell ya..when u go in the hse,its very gloomy looking but looks very elegant..anw mie mom sae things like dat type of hse..so i tink dats y mie hse is unusually bright n void of vases,carvings unlike mie relatives'..so wen i haf a hse of mie own,makin sure its bright n colourful..
n deres another where zulhairy himself saw a ghost in his own hse..his hse rite has three bedrms..all three side by side..so dere's a left,center,right room..so dis left room..wen hairy is a very young boy,we went searching for his mom..den he wandered in to dat room ar n he saw an old lady in da room..he stared at her for awhile den started crying..so cik ani came rushing in2 da room,den he started pointing at the old lady..but she vanished n he cried even harder..den his mom shushed him up n told him dat she's someone who will not harm him..but till now he's still scared of dat bedroom n doesnt dare go in dere alone..hahx..
mie couz sae mie hse is lyk da safest..the wae i see mie hse,its a teeny a bit safer than da rest but still not safe enough..nah not tokin bout me hse..it creeps me out..
anw i had fun goin dere..n tinking bout it,maybe i wud haf more fun dere den i wud b if i went to da bbq..so i made da rite choice..*smiles*..
<<and dat guy,haziq,still treats me lyk nth..stupid guy..i just asked u one question..do u haf to be so arrogant???..i noe u hansem lah n lots of gerls like u but pls lor dun act in front of me..now ur front teeth broke in half jgn nk ekshen agi ar..tink ur so big meh?? adr gf kalo lawar tkpr..muker mcm saiful apek female version..mak ko pon ckp samer..BIOL>>
i wanna forget i wanna tell u
i wanna erase wanna confess dat i cant get over u
i even wanna lose memory but i cant
just to forget u i just cant
ur someone else's everytym i see u wif her
i haf no place in ur heart jealousy overwhelms me
unlike last tym i hate her,hate her for having u
i tried mie best i wanna tell u
but i jus cant u make me all wiggly inside
stupid guy u make me feel special
y did u haf to ask??? when u smile at me
if u hadnt asked when u compliment me,even if its jokingly
i wouldnt go thru dis even when u call my name
wanna tok to u is this it??
i feel so restricted is this how its supposed to be??
hers n everyone else's eyes on me me watching from afar
watching mie every move do u want me to stay this way??
i look at u it hurts when u smile at her
u looking at her when u compliment her,even its jokingly
even when u call her name
"im right here in front of you,but all u see is her.."
.:guys:.
all dey do is make trouble u opened mie heart
at dis age,immature smmore n attempted to close it
no wonder im so uninterested expecting me to let it be closed
but it cant be closed
dun blame me
blame you mie heart cant be closed to wat it has been opened to
who started all of dis not ever...
STUPID JERK!! .:saranghamnida:.
6月15日 15/6,Fri:~it's all in vain~i did sae im gonna post the trans of All In Vain..here it is:
[Yoochun] Even though it was our past story's highlight. yup..and xiah's voice was GREAT in the rap wif yunnie..n chunnie's voice..*faints*..let's see..how to put it??..maybe sexyae~??hawt??..anywho it's just perfect for the song..n his english da pronounciation is good..better than the last tym i heard him speak english..but the trumpet in it kinda seems a bit extra..n it like went off but i guess dats part of da song..ya it sounds like it is spoilt doesnt it ???anw,da song is one of the ost for Air City..dey sang 2 songs..All In Vain n Harudal..here's the trans for Harudal: [Junsu] I touched the sky so in like an hour,mie ride will come..cant post much..mie aunt's givin a ride so dun haf to rush so much.. o yeah to joscelin: SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA!!!! SARANGHAE!! ok so not goin eunice bbq..CHYEOSONG HAMNIDA..gt family plans.. so 2dae's post is mainly to post the trans of da songs so gonna sign off.. n if u want any of the song translations,can ask me put for u..i got a whole bunch of trans at mie disposal.. hehe..so going now ~Ciao 6月14日 14/6,Thurs:wat bad bad holidays!!aish~
troublesome lah..they wan go out,they oso wan go out on same dae..ah..i sae cnt go,merajuk..suroh tukar lain hari,mulut mencicir..leceh sak..kl mcm gini,malas ar nk klua..yg nie pulak,ajak last minute..aku ckp ader plan,buat muker,jeling saner jeling sini..fuck sia..da tk leh klua sudah lah..nk org buat per seh??ingat aper??aku nk klua keper ?? kalo boleh,aku nk duduk umah diam2..tgk citer korea satu ari..puas ati aku..tk klua duit..mkn minum semuer ader..tk yah pikir nk pakai aper lah ini lah..pakai singlet ngan shorts da selesa..bodoh sak..
org da lah tkdr duit..nk ajak klua lagi..kl mkn minum provided tkpr nie nk pergi semuer tmpt mahal..ingat aper?? bapak aku cap duit keper??..aku nk ckp tknk ikut nnti diorang ingat sombong..tmpt pulak bkn nyer guna kiter pegi..asik vivo vivo vivo..dah jelak aku tmpt tu!!..so far da past 2 wks,i've been to vivo 6 tyms!! 6 TYMS!!! mcm maner tk jelak tmpt tu..arrgghh...
*blues*
i hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate the june holidays!!!! esp. dis current one!!!!
HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!
*sigh*
another topic:
i've absolutely nth to do at homw so i made another wallpaper of mie 3 lovely favourite guys..its much much much better den the last tym wan..deres a giant pic of each guy in the midle n surrounding dem are the mini pics of dem each..oh yah n i went on a photo search..mostly dbsk lah..n wowie..i hit a jackpot wif some of dem..hahx..i dun wanna post dem up in here..be selfish for once..n i put 2gedder a dbsk wallpaper..its one big pic of them five in the middle n tiny pics surrounding dem..hahx.its nice..for me lah..n i nabbed some of yunnie's pics which were damn rite melting!!!..hahx..im so happie just thinking bout dbsk..
*smile* *smile*
n i made a discovery..not a big wan but enough to make me drastically happy..
i found if i added up all the numbers in kangin's + teukie's + yunnie's bdae = mie register number..
actually it adds up to 94 but den if 9 + 4 = 13 ->mie reg. no...hahx..i noe i haf to add up 3 n 1 but shireom..i want it to be equal to 13..hehe..i found out when i wanted a no for mie username..hehe..
*bigger smile*
now wondering wat i shud do nx..its 11.10pm now..go slp or search for vids???..tink i juz watch some vids..but not embedding..im a lazy bum..
sha u mention the way u are n im lovin dat song all over again..i loved that action where dey wiggle their hands towards the audience,snapped their fingers n then jerked their heads left n right..hahx..i owaes do that action 2gedder wif dem..hahx..whoops song change..ah back to the way u are..i find xiah veri cute in the mv..wif his floppy hair.hahx..yunho wif his still cute teeth..here's the translation of the song just for fun:
(Hero)I believed that it was hard to fall in love at first (Xiah)Its not going to happen by trying *(Hero)Will you make your honest love grow? **(All)Your thoughts, your interests, (Micky)Everyone started to talk about lonliness after I saw you *(Xiah)Will you make your honest love grow? **(All)Your thoughts, your interests, (All) Dont say you don't like me **(All)Your thoughts, your interests, its bout a guy tryin to court a girl..hahx..i love the rhythm..aniwae nx song unforgettable..at last i managed to find a not live wan..shud i put the trans here??..aiyah just put ar:
04. Fool (Unforgettable) A lie, it's all a lie, those words that time will make me forget you are a lie. I never thought it'd be easy but I still love you and I still want you. A lie, that was a like, those words that I've already forgotten you are a lie. When I think about a bad habit I've started I still love you and I still want you. I've never stopped loving you. My feelings for you have never changed. You had a hard time in my embrace sweet aint it?? anw i had it stored somewhere in mie music folder,nv really listened to it..den sha asked for it n i searched n searched for it..downloaded it den listened..seemed familiar den went to check mie music folder..turns out i haf it oni under different names..hahx..so much for the trouble..oh well song's now to yaksok..i still love kangin's voice in it...so since i posted the trans of the songs sha wanted,so mite as well i post the trans of the 3rd song,Thanks To:
[YW] I open my eyes to the sunlight that is streaming in through the windows. [Choikang] Everytime I was exhausted and cried for you *[All] I know you were waiting for me [Micky] Like a child, I couldn't even hide the deepest emotions of my heart from you.
[Xiah] If I looked lonely from behind, *Repeat
(narration) [U-Know] Now give me a chance to live for you. [YW] Hold out your hands so that we could feel together... *Repeat X 2
done..anw im loading the perf where minnie was left alone on the stage so here it is:(im hardworking after all)
dis is the perf for lovin you: yea i tink dey sang it quite good..frm the comments,i gather dat lovin u is quite a hard song to sing but dey did okay..hurhur..dey almost owaes do..
whoops dad's yelling for me to stop..im surprised it took him dis long..its 11.53pm now..so i tink i better slp..in 7mins tym,its SAENGIL CHUKHA HAMNIDA for JOSCELIN!! n i haf plans 2mr..so gdnitez!!
~Ciao
6月11日 11/06,Mon:SUJU.DBSK.SARANGHAE.wuthering heights:
stop the hands of time.. its just the two of us
steal away to the eternal place in your mind the love you couldn't feel for anyone... i will ignite it.. ahh~ im so addicted to dat song..aish..
i hate mie mom..all bcoz of her i cant move away frm the tv..ever since dal ja's spring..grr..hahx..i was watching ep 10 of rrly den i suddenly tink of kangin..den i started missing watching suju n dbsk on mie comp..finally i tore mieself awae frm the tv n here i am..
kangin sshi~
found out bout his ideal girl type..*sigh*..im soo not his type..but watever..i cn juz like him ritez..i found out during his ysmm cut..logging in to veoh rite now n the website is takin sucha a freaking long tym to respond..so dun tink gonna embed the vid here..sry..
n i watched this ep of suju show too..where there are kids on the show too n they r suppose to choose their partner(basically the suju member hu dey tink is the coolest)..den none of the kids chose kangin..so pitiful..teukie was the most popular n he's so cute,saying "well it's bcoz of popularity so i accept it.." anw kangin merajuk n he dun wan to play soccer anymore..he threatened not to actually den da rest ignore him n he sat one corner,not budging until some1 fetched him..teukie felt bad den 'trained' the kid he has to lie dat kangin is the coolest..hahx..the kid has plans of his own n kept saying "i dno.." evry single tym teukie asked him who's the coolest..dey went to kangin n teukie aks edthe kid dat question..da kid said dno n kangin gt fed up n went away..the kid still refused to lie..n end of clip..
i tink dat kid's a brat..i mean juz tell a white lie for once..n fer god sake's its broadcasted..it'll make kangin look weird lor..
den gt a vid of suju candlelight talk..in suju show lah..t
eukie cried..its so sad..i hate it when teukie cries..he makes everything look so sad..basically everyone talked bout their feelings bout being in suju..n teukie brought up the fact that super junior was brought 2gether by concept so they were gonna separate in the end..
its sweet when he said," i've been thinking more and more about the day when we will have to follow our own paths.Only one thought comes to mind.I don't like it."..i went awwwww~...n tears start falling down his cheeks again..
n he said lastly: "thank you for following this fool's lead."
an then, he smiled,showing those cute dimples of his..
yehsungie replied: "you thanked us for following your lead,but we'll continue to follow and it's just the beginning for us."
its sooo sad u noe..u haf been with a bunch of ppl fer years,working together..den one day u haf to part..its like graduation day in school..den if u may bcm rivals in work,instead of team mates..imagine dis happens to all of ur fav bands..haiz..i hope suju n dbsk will last long long,if nt forever...
-Super Junior-
-Dong Bang Shin Ki-
~Hwaiting~
oh yea i've changed mie background..
gt all of mie fav guys in it..
but one yunho pic lyk gt one worm on his nose..
hahx...n one pic on the side..
yunnie looks super HAWT!!
its the result of mie frequent search for yunnie's pics..
^^
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.LOVES.LOVES.LOVES. .
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.YUNHO.JUNGSOO.YOUNGWON. .
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.DBSK.SUJU. .
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.ME.HIM.HER.US. .
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.NETBALL.COMPUTER.MP4.HANDPHONE .
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~ciao
6月9日 9/6,Sat: ~Happy daes ahead~ahh~ the last 2 daes haf been a blast..
went to east coast on thurs..separated frm the rest n we 3 went off by ourselves..hahx..reanted bicycles n went cycling round the beach..stopped by a deserted patch n played wif the water..drew some stuff on the sand dere..hahx..
some of the hearts i made were retarded..nvm u get the idea anw..gt mie shoe wet n dere was sand inside too..ate ice cream at BK..lil money left..so sha went off wif her mom n sis..while me n jos struggled to get home..hahx..found a bus stop but the bus dere only cms on wkends..muahaha..waited fer nth..we called n walked n called again n walked..the directions given were wrong n we had to walk aaallll the waaay back..i had a blister in the making n luckily we managed to find the right bus stop..hahx..walked jos to the lift n took 107 frm dere..
ytd..tot cn slp da whole dae..i was exhausted man..den mie mom said mie couzs ajak go mkn at cp..i was lyk haahhh~..im sucha a lazy bum..but go dere babysit nd lot of energy n i haf oni half of mie energy back..mie mom as usual,"ah jgn banyak colok! cpt siap2!"...>.<"..no choice ler..maz smsed halfway thru lunch dat she juz gotten back..she asked bout te drama she wanted me 2 watch..i told her i'd kol her wen i gt home..
went to couz hse..cycled arnd the neighbourhood..up n down..up n down..tot go home cn juz slp..den i rmb i hafta kol maz..hehx..she told me bout her trip n i was uh huh uh huh all the way..hehx..
oh ya..n mie lovely couz gave me dis bracelet..its made up of hearts n the hearts are preeetttyy~..
so sweet of him..he just started work n gt his first paycheck n he spent it buying stuff for everybody..
dno y da hell he bought me dis wen he noes im crazy bout 5 guys(+13 more) but still,its nice..
he treated us to ice cream too..hehx..yummy..swensen smore..hahx..
~SAYANG SARANGHAE!!!~
hahx..juz buy me stuffs n i'll love you..
hehe..jkjk..
gonna watch rrly nw..
~Ciao
P.S: << 6 more daes to go~ >>
6月5日 5/6,Tuesda vid is otw..hehe..im so lazy to upload da vid lahs..hahx..im so lazy these daes..gettin in2 the holiday mood..no more netball..yeh yeh..now nx worry on mie list: maths project..on heymaths gt email listing the things dat needs handed in during 1st wk of hols..haiz..even duing hols i get stress.. anw dis vid is the one where i said donghae n micky tried to bully yunnie..but hodong ws helping by being funny..hehex..
n hahx dis vid yunnie n doghae 2gedder..n notice joongie at the baq..
joongie doesnt look too happy bout it..
bet he's thinking ,"hey you! dun touch mie hubbie!!"..hahx..
Part 1 of truth game...kangin so hansem!!
Part 2:hahx teukie fell over..eunhyuk's vids..
well since im at it.mite as well put in other vids..
hahx dis wan..junsu cudnt join in wif the rest of dem n he juz anyhow burst in at the end..
the others were like "wat the..."
micky's face all blur..
and dbsk is rappin here..
junsu is soo freakin adorable..he rules over justin!!.."eet-eet-eet"..
joongie's rap kinda weirrdd~..say FORRRR~yo..>.<"
minnie stick to singing pls..
chunnie very gd lor..
yunnie!! y ya lkin so pale???
nx is bout the makin of o mv..budget ler...
hurhur..chunnie standing on top of the garbage can n ppl were lyk "wat the hell..??"
jj's turn..all those sirens,bodyguards fer nth..hahx..
yunnie~"cuz im human n i have to live..red light cms up n all the cars started honking n ppl wud start lookin..wif mie clothes lyk grim reaper.."
hahx..i love dat guy..
dj: "yunho standing..being treated like a weirdo.."
junsu: "in the mv,frm his expression,he looks lyk he's worrying bout the world but inside he's thinking "i must go quickly.."..LMAO..
chunnie's shocked expression aft seeing how close dey realli were..
yunnie looked awfully gay..hahx..
dats all fer 2dae lahs..im tired..
ytd woke up at 5.45 dn da whole dae until 2am..no wonder im cranky dis morn..
~i found a vid where TEUKIE'S BAACCKK IN SUKIRA!!!!
hahx..21 may..wow dats last2 wk..ahh im so happie!!!
i heard he gt 170 stitches frm da accident..hope dey come off oredi...he looks so much healthier..tink coz he gt a break..ahhhs~ n ryeowook,donghae,eunhyuk n (s)minnie welcomed him wif screams..
mom's pestering me to upload the i really really like you drama..n its sucha hassle..n im watching at veoh where it takes an awfully long tym coz da vid is nt divided in2 parts..sucha bother man..cant even watch mie stuff in peace..n she's starting to invade mie comp..juz bcoz mie uploading tym is faster den hers..at 1.30am its so uncivilized to barge in2 ur daughter's rm juz to use da damn comp!!..grr..no wonder im so tired these daes..
so gonna watch smore vids..
~ciao 6月3日 3/6,Sun: ~dun wanna~lots of ppl are askin:
are the holidays goin da wae i want it to be??
mie ans:
not really..so far the past wk,so far, i have sustained a big graze on mie knee; cried for no reason; gt unwanted 'kiss'; saw a 'ghost'..
yeah not really a ghost juz someone whou pretended to be one..u see, mie mom knew dat im a scaredy cat when it comes to dark rooms..so ytd mie mom and i finished watching dal ja's spring at arnd 12.30am..i hadnt bathed coz i cnt keep away frm watching the drama..i was feeling really sticky dat i decided i realllyy had to bathe..so while i was bathing,i heard some disturbance on mie door..den a grunt..i knew it was mie mom..so i went out looked arnd saw no one dn geting a bit creeped out,hurrried to mie room..i gt dressed n went lookin fer mie mom..so i switched off the speaker which were makin noise..i turned arnd n first thing i saw was a person sittin on da sofa..2nd thing i saw was da bright clothing..3rd thing i screamed..i was scared outta mie wits n juz screamed..hahx..mie dad gt a shock n went shouting at me..i cried,hahx frm the scare n the scolding i gt..hahx..mie mom was the person lor..stupid ar..she wore a bright blue shirt n mie imaginative mind tot it ws another colour..i had trouble slpin aft dat..
n while typin the previous paragraph,i gt a shock again..mie mom didnt put back the chair aft she sat on it,n i tot someone was on it..stoopid lah..
haiz..nth else to sae lor..miss skul..miss jens..miss tchrs..miss hmwk..miss messing about during lessons..but nx term gotta be real serious this tym..really serious bout mie studies..asked mom bout working dis yr..she said flat out no..she said to concentrate on mie studies first..stabilise mir grades..*blues*..tot cn go earn xtra money..
2mr carnival..body sae dun go..but mind sae wan go..heart dunno an go where..haiz..i cn run even wif the thang on mie knees..but i scared if hit someone or worse,fall again..it will be the end of mie knee(and skin)..arrgghhss..
anw cheering mieself up wif clips of suju..wif mie handsome kangin n teukie inside..truth game hahx.."we'll die if heechul,kangin and ee teuk opens their mouth." hahx..i love that phrase..i cn c the truth in it too..hahx..watched suju show too..waking up n goin to sleep..gosh dat two eps really got me attracted to kangin seriously..
ahs dis is wat happens wen u haf too much free tym..u start being infatuated wif al kinds of ppl..
ah jongmal..
his smirk..wah~ im melting..
their hair~..
their smile~..
their eyes~..
their confidence~
fuu-yoh..
it bowls me over~
~oh saranghaeyo geudae my love~
so errm
dats all fer 2dae..2nite actually.. watched the truth game vid.. eunhyuk to kangin: "do u like women wif big breasts??"..LMAO..i almost died frm laughing wen i heard dat.. kangin to eunhyuk: "b4 n after debut,u downloaded racy videos on ur pmp n carried dem arnd.."..LMAO.. mc: "wat cn u see on dat small screen??" heechul: "pmp is portable..he cud watch it anywhere..in the toilet,when we are overseas.." hahx..n teukie fell over the chair..he is sooo cute n dorky!!.. den another vid..donghae n yunnie..micky n donghae ganged up 2 bully mie precious..hahx.. i dun wanna sleep..i dun wanna wake up early 2mr..i dun wanna wake up..i juz wanna lie in bed n sleep all dae..dun u ppl hear of mondae blues???..but i have to..haiz.. aish..mie family keeps telling me to quit netball..sometyms i want to but at tyms i wan to stay..arrgghhss..y cant dere be somewhere where i'll fit in comfortably n happily,where no one will be complaining bout mie presence dere??y cant i be somewhere where i'll be accepted comfortably,just lyk i am?? isn't dere anywhere dat i can be happy everytime?? for now,the answer will just be in mie fantasies..in mie daydreams..dats where i'll fit in lyk i am..
~ciao
6月1日 1/6, Friso errm..a bit awkward aft mie last entry..ahem..
da thing on mie knee is gettin better..it keeps givin out yellow watery stuff,i 4gt wat its called..wanted to take a photo of it den decided its too gross a pic to be kept inside mie fone or comp..uggh..
mom n dad r out arnd toa payoh dere,buying me ice cream..yeah i had a crave fer it since noon n da ice cream guy disappeared b4 i cud go down n buy one..anw watched dal ja's spring wif mom juz nw n its a great movie..
so synopsis:
oh dal ja is still single despite being 33 yrs..one dae she knocks in2 kang tae bong(lee min ki) n so their friendship starts..tae bong offers to be her fake bf in front of her ex n he is to be paid for it..a contract is made n it will be terminated if any personal feelings were developed between the two of em..so lyk any other story, dal ja fell in love wif tae bong n their contract was terminated..n wen dal ja started missing tae bong, he came to her n told her dat he wanted her to be his girlfriend..he moves in wif her n dat soon started all the laughs n troubles..eventually both of dem fell in love wif each other but refuse to admit it..dal ja yearned fer tae bong to sae i love u to her..she waited n waited juz for the words to come out his mouth..their families soon came to noe bout their livng under one roof n all the opposition between the two families made dal ja feel very tired..wats more, tae bong's ex appears again..(grr bitch)..dal ja asked for a break up juz wen tae bong was about to propose to her..blah blah blah..she goes overseas n come baq n meets him again..ending sucks but at least dey r2geddr..
whoops gtg
parents r home..
n yay dey brought home
2 TUBS OF ICE CREAM!!
~ciao 5月31日 31/5,Thurs:~down down down~haiz..its so weird..one day u can be soo happy n da nx dae u feel lyk crap..
becoz of some1
hah..i broke down ytd..during da match against amk..2nd quarter..lookin baq, i myself cant understand y i just ~.~...during 2nd quarter, tears keep cmin out n i had no tym to wipe dem away..da GA even asked whether im ok..i juz let dem flow..at last whistle fer tym..ran to the pond dere n cried mie heart out..one by one members came n one by one dey left me alone..thank god sha asked dem to leave me alone..
i heard u n those words
i hate it when i cry n someone comforts me..it makes me feel pathetic n i'll cry harder..n also when im down,i haf a habit of not letting anyone make me feel better..i juz want to feel better by myself..
i juz wanna suffer by myself
i called her, telling all dat's happened..she said i shouldnt have kept mie feelings inside..she had noticed dat i nv told her bout wat bothers me..i always talk to her as if i hadnt any involvement in anything..i nv tell her wat i feel or how i feel..n she tries hard to noe wat im feeling n she worries bout me..hahx..she sounds lyk mie mom when she says dat..she also said dat im da worst when im feelin down or after i've cried..its like im a zombie..i haf no feelings..i dun smile i dun do anything..i juz keep quiet..one attempt at conversation n it'll fall flat..hahx..she said it's like i switch off mie feelings after use..(wat a stupid wae to phrase it,i tot in mie heart)..anw she juz told me dat if i feel lyk i nd someone to tok or juz haf nth 2 do,juz call her...she'll be on da phone as long as i want to..
yea rite lyk any1 wans to be on da fone fer hours
its funny how she always manages to work as a counselor even if it's nt office hours..she's mie own special private one..i cn tell her almost anything as she had also went thru it..she's lyk me once..a netballer,a klutz(always falling down),get average grades n haf issues..dats y i cud relate to her so much..haiz..
i even have a counselor
another thing i wonder..if someone's just suddenly keeps quiet n seems down, must she be called emo?? its lyk so frustrating..ur juz lost in ur troubles n someone keeps calling u emo in dat annoying tone..i'll get pissed off..cant some1 just be sad w.o being labeled as anything??..
emo's juz a fuckin lame wae to label some1
and if relieving evry single bit of wat pains me isnt enough, i haf a stupid ankle problem n a injury to the knee to go wif it..wth man..n i just said in mie last post dat no one shud be unhappy during hols..fancy dat happening to me..
i feel so down i feel lyk im depressed
i feel so angry..for what??at whom?? i dno..juz feel angry..
(A)she asked me wats mie problem..well the problem is me..
evry single problem i had is bout me..no one is at fault juz me..
ur always rite ain't it??
im always at fault..
im always da one getting blamed..
im always dragged in2 stuff dat doesnt interest me..
im always da one wrong..
im nv right..
im always da one who had to give in..
i hate myself
hate hate hate hate
fuck lah
so now baq to feeling lyk crap
.watever.
~end
5月28日 28/5, Monhehs..yeah i love da background too..mie sexyae yunnie!!..
anw da project meeting was cancelled..haiz..at dis rate how to finish dis damn thing sia?!?!..she's a bit scared to go to skul coz of some stupid idiots who wrote threats on her tagboard..immature guys..wan threaten use tagboard ar?? very creative ppl nowadays..or dey simply haf nth to do..sheesh..
so in the end maz came mie hse..she gave baq da cd n did her mp4..hahx itsa bit weird seeing the cover thingy on her face lyk dere's one spoltch dere..den wen she boarded da bus dn i rmbed i didnt pass her her bdae present..hahx..funny sia..
so now im so freaking hardworking writing down da meanings fer da hangul words..hahx..if onli i were dis hardworking when it cms to studies..mie results wud be better...haiz
ahhs *slap slap* no more results..its da hols!!..enjoy while i cn..but it juz doesnt seem lyk da hols..aft all da plans we made..only to be cancelled at the last min..n some stupid bastard decides to contact her all of a sudden..mentioning stupid stuffs..he tink he so big izzit?? go find someone ur own size lahs..
anw 2mr netball camp..yay..2 daes 8 to 5..yeah..lyk working rite??..anw i miss coach but i wonder wat she has in store fer us..hope it isnt too tough..
hehez..
so mie mom's bugging me to shower..hehx..im a lazy gerl..better go b4 mie dad cms home if not he'll be worse..
so
Ciao
P.S: <<saw his msn msg..>>
<<he lyk a bit sad..>>
<<seems to be hinting at sth..>>
<<dun be angry anymore ok??>>
<<its da hols..>>
<<no one shud be unhappy..>>
Peace
:p
5月26日 A Long P.Sso the ironing can wait..i missed blogging too much..just gonna type some stuffs..
bought sth fer maz..its cute..the min i saw it,i smiled..its da same thing wif maz..i wud see her n juz smile..she carries dat cheery aura wif her n i smile fer no reason..she is a great fren..some nitez we wud juz call up each other n juz chat..mostly we wud tok bout suju or dbsk n sing along to the song i played on the comp..it looks boring when u see it typed here but its really fun when it happens..
she listened when i felt insecure bout some stuffs..really listened..dat doesnt happened too often..we took turns to listen to each other n i felt really better after dat..she may be irritating at times but hey no one isnt irritating..
rite now listening to yaksok..kangmin sang it..n i really love kangin's voice..even tho it shook during some parts,its really ~wah~..all husky n low..makes me wiggly..sounds quite like yunho..maybe dats y i love him..he's so KAWAII!!! i watched the vid where teukie learned to drive n kangin was da instructor acting like da leader all dat..den teukie was so concentrated in drivin..u cn c it on his adorable face..all scruched up,eyebrows knitted..hahx..(S)minnie was cute too,popping out of da windows lyk dat..hahx..when teukie hit the pole,kangin was lyk "ahhh~~"..reaction was too cute..minnie's face when the whole thing ended n he said,"i died n im alive again.."..expression was priceless..i was a bit sad when the hosts said dat kangin was showing leadership qualities n maybe shud change wif teukie..harrumph..teukie shud nv be replaced by anyone else..onli one leader n teukie's da best person!!
watched da xman clip where hodong said saranghae to yunho..hahx..kyowo..hehex..oso a vid where dbsk went to eat ramen n joongi dropped his ice cream..n he went all "i dropped mie expensive ice crem~" in dat adorable whinny voice of his..mie dad's new pda had a japanese language thingy in it n all the basic phrases is in dere..n i played wif it..too bad no romanization..i kept teasing mie mom,"wakarimashita?wakarimasen.." hahx..she was lyk wth r u doin??...
den i went to google n searched for a similar but korean software..n dere was one!!..i downloaded it..cant wait fer it to be put inside da pda..soon i wud be a bit cleverer in hangul..heh..
hmm searching fer other things to sae..mind landed on dat person..
i never mentioned him n his importance to anyone..not even to maz or sha..the names i told dem was just meaningless crushes..its funny how i can keep him so buried within me...reason was dey dun nd to noe..dis was just one of the things da i tot dey dun haf to noe..if dey knew,everything wud change..his name was sth dat wudnt be approving to anyone..so *pats heart zips mouth* his name wud juz stay dere..
~ushinaenai kimi wo~ stills remains as mie fav phrase..
i tink it will always remain as mie fav,if not one of mie favs..
heh..suddenly i feel so _____....
hahx..tink dis is all..
i hate to leave the comp but its gonna be bedtime soon..
have to wake up at 7 2mr..
haiz..
stupid ceremony..sent the 200 to letterbox can oredi wad..
muz so formal take it for wad sia??
k lah
Ciao 26/5, Sathehex..
im baq..
i missed blogging..cant rmb y i felt dat a blog had to be such a burden..guess i wasnt thinkin rite..anw during its absence,i kept fergetting dat i had deleted it..i wud log in to msn n pressed on mie name den da pop up wud state dat mie space has to be created..den i wud go,"eh i dun have space ar??"..hahx scatterbrained me..
maz bdae is 2mr..muz wish her hapi bdae on the stroke of midnite..at first msn made plans to go out 2dae but somehow it was postponed..den aft it was postponed,sha coudlnt make it due to results..yea i feel for her..poor maz her bdae's cmin up n ppl r juz nt in the mood..but wat can we do??..
so results..this yr mie results really very lan..i noe i was really slacking more than i shud but i didnt do anything bout it..i was prepared fer mie results in some way but juz really looking at it made me realize i wasnt really prepared at all..all the tym at sentosa i was thinkin how r mie results?wud dey be gd?wat wud he sae if he saw it?..all those thinkin made me really not in the mood..the images of singapore perked me up a lil but otw baq i really felt no reason to smile..mrs thoo asked me the moment i stepped up to her,"wat happened to u???" da minute i heard dat i was lyk shit this is really it..first thing i looked at was class position..i dropped 6 places frm last year eoy..all the time mrs thoo was telling me how i had a flair fer writing,in mie mind the words oh shit oh shit kept repeating..
i tried hard not to cry coz of her..other ppl might tink i haf no reason to cry..coz at least mie parents didnt haf to be called up..but..i juz stared at mie slip fer awhile biting mie lip..den i turned baq at her..she was oredy sniffing..i was at a loss..i wanted to comfort her juz lyk she did when i cried but i cant really tink of anything to sae..so i juz sat quietly feeling just as sad as she was even tho..sry..
den she looked up..i looked at her she looked at me..we just stared at each other for while..i took in wat i saw in her eyes..n i was reminded of everything..every single test,every single paper i had done badly..da canings i had..da scoldings..every minute came rushing in2 mie brain..tears welled up n i looked away trying to blink away those tears..but dey just keep rolling down..i was searching fer mie tissue..in mie mind i was lyk, where's da tissue when u nd it??..she was lyk nah lah nah lah,handing me a tissue..i was heh..even when im sad i cud be such a dope..
jos came n was lyk wat happen??y u oso?..i had to laugh at dat..she wanted to go to the toilet..i didnt want to at first but just followed coz i want mie eyes to clear up..played wif water..heh didnt joined coz i wanted to just stand at da side n watch dem..watching the rest of jens is quite entertaining sometimes..
at home,mom n i planned to go out..i saw mie dad's motorcycle at da vd n i was tinkin shit he's at home..i silently prayed all the ay up the stairs dat he wont rmb bout mie results n wont ask me bout it..i planted a smile n went in..dey were lkin pretty serious n was alarmed fer awhile..den i acted stupid lyk i wud be in front of dem n dey bcame normal..mie dad went to shower n mie mom asked,"eh 2dae gt results baq rite?? where are dey??"..i was lyk ah later later i show u..i hurried to mie room n stayed dere..den we went out..i was waiting fer her to ask bout it again but she didnt..
i showed him 2dae..he just came baq frm cycling,all sweaty but smiling..i guess it was a great trip for him..i tidied da hse to please him..n make him happy..joke arnd..den when i cant hold baq anymore..i just sat in front of him n smiled stupidly..he was lyk u want sth izzit?? act so guai 2dae..
i told him slowly,lookin anywhere but his face:
"dad u noe rite ytd was the last dae of sch.."
he nodded,waiting fer me to go on..
"yah den we gt our..(had a hard tym saying this word)..results baq..u dun wan c izzit??"
i looked at him..
dad,"ok ok..so??how is it?? u fail ar?? huh?? huh??"
i ran to mie room yelling no i didnt fail any thing..
came baq passed it to him n he searched fer mie grades..
"c6???malay???explain.."
i explained dat da project we did wasnt rite n it pulled us down..
he gave the uggh face when he heard project which make me think he hates projects too..heh..
"hmm..u gt c mie report card anot??"
i sighed..tink it was the tenth time he mentioned his rport card..
"u gt c any Cs not?i NEVER get Cs u noe..All either As or Bs.."
watever dad..i dun really care..
den he said no hard disk fer me..
i was lyk grr..he just said he was gonna give me another 40GB hard disk b4 i said bout da results..
parents went out n came baq wif sth i'd been wanting fer a long tym..earpiece wif volume control..it wasnt like any other i had..this wan really sticks in2 ur ear n blocks out any outside sound..once u put it on even w/o music,evry sound becomes softer..wif the music u cant relly hear anything if u on it loud enough..now plugging it in2 mie comp..
k so
gonna iron mie uniform..
have to take some stupid bursary at telok ayer dere 2mr in the morn..
troublesome man..but get 200 so sacrifice a bit lah..
~SAYONARA~ |
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