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7月21日 Still in mie CAMP mood!!!hahx camp was ok lahs..da crc was boring..but the kayakking was fun lyk hell..n for the first tym for all the campfires i had, dis campfire was da BEST i've ever had!! i was veri enthu fer da perf n i lyk the feeling..all thx 2 da instructors..esp. RAIN!! she's so hyper n her hype is contagious..da campfire was realli fun tho at da end i was feelin a lil bit moody..but cheereds up de..n da 2nd nite whoo...i was freezing lyk hell..i twist n turn to get warm..but i'll owaes try to face jos side..coz wen i turn to eunice i cn see out where the flyin fox is n im scared wat i'll see..LOL.. *ssi ssakk ssakk ssi ssakk ssakk ssi sakk sakk YEAH~* hahx..its so catchy dat song.. but hor..juz wen i tot i cn relaz during da wkend..pesta sukan had 2 be brought 4ward..idiotic rite??..i noe for sure im not gonna be on form n i wasnt..*sad*..watever lah..its over now.. i miss miss miss MISS mie comp soo muchie during mie camp..wahh all the songs n vids inside..wahhh...but now im baq at home..wif mie comp,pillow n blanket..ahhhh...*kiss everything*... im soo freakin tired..n hungry..u noe 4 the whole dae i onli ate 2pieces of bread n ice cream n nth else..i wan slp but i wan eat..haiz.. CA NX WK!!! confirm DIE lor!!! i haven study everything!!!im so freaking scared!!! arrgghhh!!!!idiot lah..y muz be so fast wan??? grr..tink i go cram stuff in2 mie brain now.. oh i sent request to RAIN liao ler..hehex..she gt put e1 foto lehs.. Ciao~ u sae u love me n wan me 2 be ur gerl but i dun wanna rush mieself u keep askin me whether u'll haf chance i keep sayin dun rush me im sorry its juz dat i dun wanna feel lyk im forced to be wif u da more u ask me da more im unsure pls dun rush me if u really love me u'll wait i'll tell u if its better we stay as frens but for now juz hold on will u?? *~i never let go~* 7月15日 what a small small worldwent to yzps ytd wif karmilah..gt storytelling..long tym i nv step inside yz so i agreed to go..how i miss the walk down da hill to sch..a lot of things changed in dat area..da blocks have been renovated n upgraded..playgrounds all over da place..lovely..
^ ^
found out dat cikgu ahmad retired lio..*sob*..he's da best tchr i've ever had..he came tho as a guest..we gt bored n slipped out o eat for awhile..otw to central we talked lah..how secondary sch is tough..the tyms we shared during ps..our gang..she said hg sux n wanted 2 transfer to bowen..i said if she ever transfered to bowen,she'll be most welcomed..she talked bout her frens..stopped tokin fer awhile as we decided to eat..bought burger ramli n headed baq 2 sch..
otw baq,she asked if i haf stead..da moment she asked dat,a firm immediate NO was mie ans..i said i plan to stay single all thru mie sec sch frm now on..i've seen all the 'hardships' of those hu haf steads n decided dat dere's no wae im gonna go thru dat until im ready..all the fights, da tears,da emo daes..dats oredi happening to me evn tho i've no stead..so havin one is gonna be one hell of a prob..i dno wats gonna happen in the future,if im gonna stick to mie words,bt unless something happens,mie decision is gonna stay dat wae..
anw,i tot we'd haf tym to hang arnd aft da thing finished but mom sae i haf 2 be baq arnd 2 coz we gonna go 2 da expo..so had to go home aft dat..anw at homw i had tym 4 a short nap coz mie dad gonna c his fren 1st..
aft washing up n everything,rushed to the expo..mie uncle was modelling at da expo so mie dad was supposed to tape it but we missed the first clothes..mie uncle looked so white n weird wen walking down da runway..hahx..but the women's clothes were really beautiful..
anw we walked arnd lookin fer the mangoes mie mom wanted so much..realli cheap u noe..1kg fer $2..ppl carried basketfuls of mangoes arnd...
.:well.well.well.what a small world:.
guess who we met?? wen mie dad smiled at dis old makcik,i tot it was somebody's mom..juz a somebody's mom..but turns out it was her mom..da young lady bside her..she looked really familiar..dat slim figure..dat fair skin..dat curly,long hair..mind you,i wwasnt wearin mie specs n cnt see clearly..i was unsure whether to salam her or not..den i turned to mie mom,n waited whether she's gonner offer her hand..but mom was standing a few meters away n watched da woman warily..
i was lyk 'hu is she??hu is she??'..
mie mom smiled uncertainly n said 'bapak kau nyer matair lah..'
i was lyk ' what????'..n she repeated dat sentence..
i stared at her..looked up n down..looked at mie dad..as dey said goodbye..she givin an aura of wantin 2 get away quickly..dey went away..mie dad looked at mie mom,she stared back,i stared at him and all of a sudden i laughed..maybe it was nervousness or craziness or wadnot but i just laughed n dragged mom on..i laughed lyk nth really happened but inside, i was really worried..
aft dat,mie dad seemed 2 be payin more attention 2 mie mom..lyk he was assuring her nth's gonna happen..i hope nth will happen..den as we hung arnd,while mie parents was busy chattin wif mie relatives,mie bro said dis,
"for once we are havin fun 2gether..den dat BITCH,SLUT,WHORE had to juz appear n spoil it all."
i dno wat 2 reply 2 dat..
den in the taxi,otw home,i was lyin on mie mom's shoulder for a nap,i kept thinking bout her..i knew dat she's tinkin bout it n he's tinkin bout it too..da shock of seeing her unexpectedly was hittin us bad..mie mom fone rang n mie dad sent a msg to mom,askin whether she's aslp..i knew dat he wanted to reassure her dat fr sure,nth's ever gonna happen..
at home as i waited for mie turn to bathe,i heard mie mom mentioning her to dad..dad was lyk,'stop it oredy.we juz saw her at expo.it doesnt mean im gonna marry her.dun need worry so much.'..i went out of mie room singin hi ya ya at the top of mie lungs as if i heard nth..
.:bitch:.
anw watched my wife is a gangster 3..it wsnt dat funny as i expected..oni one part was..lol..
I WANNA WATCH HARRY POTTER AND ORDER OF PHOENIX!!!!
mie bro oredy watched..den he started tellin me wat happened nn i plugged mie ears so to block his voice..i wanna watch it myself..wahhhh~
i realised im gettin more hot tempered dis daes..evry lil bit i tend to flare up..particularly at home..
on thurs i cried so bad dat mie eyes were swollen on friday morn..i washed mie eyes wif warm water n soon it disappeared..i felt so bad inside but i kept quiet..jos asked n asked me to tell her wat happened but i refused point blank to tell her..
.:im mean:.
.:im sarcastic:.
.:im unfeeling:.
.:im bland:.
.:im cold:.
.:yes:.
.:i know:.
just fuck off
7月8日 L.O.V.E
HANGUNGMAL;currently the toughest 'subject' im takin!! ^ ^
memorizing korean alphabets was okay..it was fun..dis website I found was really clear on how to learn korean..it even had practice questions n its soo satisfying to get all of it correct..^ ^..den nx is learning to write the characters..which comes first n wat cms nx or wat to do if a syllable starts wif a vowel or sth..its cool..well I tried to learn how to make sentences next but dat was really hard..so I gave up..hehe..so now im trying to write romanized words into written ones..
*hahx..yunho’s voice again..*
ahem…2dae is sundae..2mr is the start of another week..haiz..on fridae played against the tchrs..n mrs yong decided to get a lil bit aggressive wen she played GS..she banged hard in2 me lyk 2 tyms n I was diiiizzzyyy~..den I gt in2 mie competitive mode even tho its juz a stupid game..hahx..im so glad I wore mie ankle guard..wen I took it off at home,mie ankle cracked like a piece of twig..
SUMMER DREAM~ hahx..i watched the mv really carefully n realised dat jaejoong looked really HAPPY in dere..he was smilin lyk so happily while he was dancing..changmin’s hair made im look lyk a typical jap guy..dno..n micky –eeek- was lyk actin cool n it was so act lorr..hahx..yunnie suddenly appeared more in the mv so I tink his screen tym is improvin..one thing I dun like bout SUMMER DREAM is dat its music is like so similar to SKY..all bubbly n typical japanese song..at least throw in some dbsk style or sth..the tune can be almost changed to sky’s tune at one point..but nvm lah..
*I knew I shudnt care..but I cant not care…*
*But If I erase everything about you, I won't have anything to remember you by* *I'll eventually let go of the feelings I have for you *There are words I can't keep inside* *I'll try to endure it, so you can leave* i haf nth to doooo~..parents out to buy polar n bro’s out to madrasah..haiz..no one to layan me..im stuck at dat stupid hp game n I nd mie bro to tell wat to do..oh! I juz rmb I downloaded a dbsk vid n havent watch it so opening it now.. ahem da sponge programme..yunnie was soo cute..actually yunnie was embarassed quite a couple of tyms coz he gave ans dat were lyk crap but I tink its cute..aheh..den gt one part where he sae he wanna put a jewelry box (punseok sangsa;I cn READ HANGUL YAY!!)) in a balloon n da MC asked y he wanna do dat..n I went all helloooo to give to someone lyk DUUUHHH!!!...den yunnie was lyk lkin at the mc as if she ws stupid..heh..dats wat I saw lah..but I noe dats wat he was tinkin ar..bet the mc was embarassed..den da guy asked if he has a gf n he said No(obseo imnida ^ ^) confidently n smiled goofily..n haaaahhh..im so in looovvee~…I haf a pic of him smilin dat goofy smile..*SMILES* ..and JAEJOONGIE was being dorky n cute wen he said watermelon(su-bak)..^ ^..a habit of his to blurt out 1st thing on his mind..hehe.. and da vid Small Trip..JAEHONESSS!!!..minnie was taking da pics of dem two n both were lyk so excited!! hehe..kyopta!!!..yunnie pointin here n dere..oh n minnie got a cold..he was sniffing wen he commented on da sight..poor him!hahx..den at the end of dat part 1 gt mie destiny MV, MINNIE n his IPOD!!! hahx.. Prt 2: Mt Fuji..hahx..jan-ken-pon..LOVES..and YAY yunnie was da first to get middle-blessing(dno wth is dat for but anw..)..hehe..n walao~chunnie so bad!!..he,junsu n jae gt near blessing which means dey are in da same team..den wen some1 aked wat bout yunho n minnie, chunnie said “who are dey?”…heeeyyy~..n wen dey were tokin bout the same team thingy,I saw jae lkin repeated at someone bside him..i tink its yunho(hehe grabbing at any chance to point out jaeho!!)..maybe jae wants yunho to follow him..hehe..u nv noe..n chunnie pointed out dis mask of a jovial fat guy(looks chinese) n said “dis resembles yunho-kun.”…lol..n CAANDDYY!!!!!!!...LOL den at da end of part 2 gt destiny MV oso..den XIAH N HIS FLOWER BOUQUET!!!! hahahahahahahaha!!.. Part 3: Handicraft..divides in2 groups wif jan-ken-pon again..awww jae is wif junsu while yunnie,minnie n chunnie is in 1 team..n minnie’s “uh-oh” is sooo CUTE!! lyk da teletubbies “uh-oh”..eee cutee nyerrr..yunho is so concentrated on doin his piece dat he was very close to his wkpiece..n I paused rite wen he was blowing so he now looks like an adorable pufferfish..hehe.. hahx..i watched back dis clip where teukie n eunhyuk was reading fanmail sent by california fans..n dey were so cute!!! “ur soo gorgeous!!” “u me same same!” “I love youuu!” “mie name is ee teuk” “ooh niice to meet u..ohh!!”..hahx..their fobbish english..LOL..so adorable..<3<3.. *coz I cant stop thinking bout u girl~* haaahhhh~ .:<LOVE> <LOVE> <LOVE> <LOVE>:. ~Ciao 7月4日 4/7: lifelit just friggin suxlol..juz heard frm sha bout the suju movie..well i 'researched' for awhile n found out that the title is
<Flower Guy Terror Event Series>..even the title sounds funny..flower guy??? hurhur..
and walao dis comment made by someone:
"The plot sounds incredibly lame... just another way for SM to make money."
and
"i think SM wants to break into movie industry now. They just want to because after DBSK "Vacation" was a success they thought they can make more money out of the fans."
eh one of da cmnts said dat dbsk is in too but i tink dats not true..if yes den surely will haf made an appearance in the trailer mah..*reading on* hmm,n heechul is the president of the dance club???hahx..funny i cant imagine him dancing except for his fav bi dance movement..dats bout all.n i included 2 pics of the movie too. ^ ^
oh found a hyukmin thread..n da pics!!..some were showing fren sweetness..minnie adjusting sth in hyuk's mouth..n b4 debut i tink,so cute both of dem posing 2gedder..
mie mood suddenly went down with juz a stupid no ans..its juz a stupid damn thumbdrive..n juz fer 1 dae..its not as if hes gonna use it 2mr or wad..n arrghh coach came 2dae..lyk F man!!!!
y the hell are so many things happening arnd the same tym?!?!?!
i feel so stressed..its barely 2nd wk of skul n oredi lyk dis..bite mie lips..bite mie lips..bite mie lips,hold ur breath for 5 secs,close ur eyes tightly n exhale slowly she says everytym i wanna bawl..smtyms it helps sometyms it doesnt..dis is one of da tyms..
y cant i juz be one of those ppl hu doesnt care?? who doesnt give a damn bout their grades or wats happening arnd dem??aarrghh...i juz wanna lie in bed n sleep but dat freaking proj. is keepin me up..
eee gerammmnnnyyyeeerrrrrrrrrr akkkuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like pulling the keyboard out n juz smashing it on the floor..
its startin to emerge
dis side of me i dunno about
i cant hold it in any longer
its like its waiting
its like im waiting
for it to happen
juz dat n i'll flare up
words i cant take back
actions i'll regret
.:it'll all happen:.
7月3日 3/7:shit happens.:jealous:.
yes I am..
u two owaes go off w.o me now..last tym we were inseparable..i try to join the converseation but u guys just ignored me..u guys are growing up too fast..didnt we promised dat we’d mature together??..u giggling in dat corner while im here minding the kids..acting as if u own the world..actin as if ur minahs in da making..makeup n foundation plastered to ur face..clothes dat r revealing cleavage..tell me is dat da wae to grow up??
at last sha returned the cd I’ve been eagerly waiting for..hahx..i 4gt to point out jaejoong,during the ending of I never let go perf,as the chairs dey were sitting on went down,joongie was startled.his body jerked a bit as he ws so cute,tryin to act as if nth happened..LOL.. n during da perf where yunnie’s button popped off,hahx..da JaeHo LOVE IT!!! n I saw aft dat joongie glanced at sth n was smilin den he stick out his tongue lyk he wanna keep a straight face..LOL…I tink he was lking at yun’s pants lor..coz he was dancin in yun’s direction..LOL..
n shit lor..i broke maz’s mp4.. T.T ...the screen broke..n I was so horrified wen I realised it was broken..maz was actin all cool but I noe she was well –disturbed- dat its broken..now I have to scrape out 30 bucks coz she gonna save up too n buy a new wan..i was friggin TERRIFIED lor!!!..nv had I broken sth dat belonged to mie fren..n its mp4!!!..omg.. T.T ..Maz, ChyeosonG hamnida..Bianhe..Jongmal Bianhe… T.T
~Day-dreaming~ dats wat I do wen im bored..day dream bout wad?? da usual.. ^ ^ .. dun nd a genius to figure dat out..
I cant concentrate..i feel lyk im in another world..mie thoughts are straying..i cant bring dem back.. all I see..all I can see is ____..its constricting..i feel worthless.. Im slackin..i really am..n im terrified..i dun wan mie grades to slip..pls pls pls.. dun let me make da same mistake again.. Im tryin to block mie mind..trying..but dat damn thing keeps bothering me..
I look around n I feel disgusted. I did nth.. nth at all.. yet I feel lyk a _____..
.:those meaningful glances:.
.:wat u are tinkin:.
.:I know:.
7月2日 2/7so the trip to jb was mostly booooringg..the main purpose in goin dere was to buy some shoes for bro..and hell,I dun even get to step in a shop I lyk..stupid..soon mie iron face began showing n dad bought me a hp game to appease..yea rite dad,buy me stuff so I’ll be ok.. *roll eyes*..got yelled at for talkin too much..hark..its mie mouth im just feelin chatty no nd to bite mie head off..idiot..
im watching all of dbsk mvs and I just remembered how cute the ballon mv is..jae was the cutest..wif his innocent look on his face as he danced..hahx..so I noticed a couple of jae’s cute antics in the ballon mv: - jaejoong puffing his mouth in the beginning..(so cute,esp. wif yunho bside him!!!) - jae putting up his arms n getting a hug frm junsu..(chaos reigned bhind dem) - during jae’s part,jae smiled a reluctant smile(so cute..i call it the dunno-wat-to-do smile) - jae’s movin his body lyk a small kid n his outfit looked awfully baggy..
n da rest of the members: - yunnie was staring at junsu during one part..(hahx mater kerow!!kinda lah) - yunnie spinning-lyk-a-top move(sha lyks to imitate dis) - yunnie cute face poking out frm the side(while junsu was singing I tink) - micky kena pecked by the stupid ‘bird’ beak n seemed irritated but was tryin not to show it..(his face lyk forcedl) - yunnie kena hit by the ballon while spinning arnd..(cute sey!! minnie was da one who did it n was laughin gleefully at the back!) - lastly jae’s cute face wen the kid refused to look at the camera..(well he cant expect everyone to be a camwhore lyk him rite??)
I lent the concert dvd to sha n im waiting eagerly for it to come back..am listening to love aft love now n wanna see dem ding it live all of the suddenly..one part junsu’s voice was amazingly sexy(to me ar..in the studio version wan not live)..
I never let go is sucha sweeeeet soong~..here’s the trans: Even if I've tried for days to forget you, to erase you, These awkward words are for you. I never let go (Never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna) Why are you leaving? Tell me. I can't understand. What am I to do? The long time is for you too. I never let go (Never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna) Even if another time comes, only you are my everything. I never let go (Never I) I'm gonna make a way (I'm gonna) For you, eternity.
sweet ain’t it?? forever was mentioned several times..i wonder can anything really last forever?..ppl sae if u put in the effort, it will..*doubt*..oh well..no tym to tink dat deep..
youth dae on mondae so holiday!!! yayee~..cn wake up a bit late n no ntbl..on wed,relief coach gonna come.. :( ..
Always dere: *~ne morrisogul modu jiwodo,juchehal su obshi to orunun ne mosub~*
suddenly yunho’s voice seems so enchanting..hahx..i wanna see da concert again n again..i wanna see dbsk..
anw,1st wk of skul was ok except for the tired body..on fridae,stupid music bcm last period instead of first..haiz..n soo early in the morn,gt science liao ler..-uggh-..
Dangerous Mind:*~I can never forget,to me dangerous ur mind. they can never stop it, to me dangerous tonite..~*
hahx..da word arrangement reminds me of singlish..
D.M: *~(you)make hell inside beating every every night are you crying wen I cry? hurt me everyday~*
wow joongie’s rock voice..alah~ nx song is unforgettable..hear dis song alwaes feel like waving mie hands up in the air as if im at their concert n dey sang dis song~..aiyah I a lot of daydreams wan lor..hahx..
*~gude obshi nan,gwenchanha jil su obnungol~*
hahx..yunho sing wan..wen I wan start new paragraph owaes yunho’s voice come jaring out..nx is free ur mind..nice leh..first is junsu rap..den yunho..den micky..i lyk the forcefulness in their voices wen dey sing the part aft da raps..
wjoa~ jae’s rock voice again!!!..during the concert,during dat part..i was giggling to mieself..all jae cud do was move his hands n sway his body a bit n dats all..hahx..
eh? love aft love again!..hahx..
Yun:*~Sujubge udnun mosubkaji woo~*
I love his woo~ part!!! he crooning dat part veri nice his voice leh..omg lookin at dat prev sentence I realised dat broken eng really looks weird wen written..hahx..not gonna bother changing it..
hahx..yunnie’s rap..hahx!!!..im sooooooo infatuated wif him..*smiles*..
Even though I haven't forgotten you, I still search for another love *~yongwonhi norul gidaril su isseo*~
nx..beautiful life..
*~I love my beautiful and ordinary life~* *~dun wanna live my life any other way*~
if anyone realized,dis song was da one dey were singing in the beginning of banjun drama: Finding Lost Time..it took me a looooong tym to finally realize dat it was actually dat song..at first I tot it was love aft love but then I look at the trans n it was different..den suddenly I listened to B.L n it seemed so familiar I searched the vids n I realised dat it was da song I’ve been searching for.. I wish to be with you forever, unconditionally. I love you so much. -uggh- mie stomach juz grumbled n I nd to find sth to eat.haiz.i feel so sleepy better go slp lah..no eating in da middle of da nite..
*~midojugil yongwonhi~*
k lah.. enuff lah fer 2dae..
~Ciao
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