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3月30日 lalala~i KNOW there's still lots of things to do but. i can't seem to rmb what they are.. hmmmm~ ANW, obviously to anyone who'd seen me online, TOWANI by The Gospellers have been on repeat the whole time~ and yes, im addicted to it for the time being.. during dbsk's performance with them, the song didn't seem to strike as sth nice.. but i just randomly press download on the Towani link and voila, look what's happened to me.. ^^ it's nicer like this.. without the live band.. maybe it's because dbsk's younger voices clash with the matured ones of the gospellers so yeah.. but separately, nice nice.. ^^ but. hearing dbsk's harmony, NOTHING beats that, baby~ lol i'm all alone at home.. after an argument with my mom, which left her to leave the house in a huff.. well, it's NOT my freaking fault the damned teachers like to give us loads of homework and projects it's not MY fault i have to stay at home to finish it all or risk failing. what, she thinks i like being stuck at home with loads of assignments surrounding me, screaming at me to finish 'em.. im sorry that i can't finish them quickly alright? im sorry i can't go out with you alright? im sorry i keep postponing the day outs i promised okay? im not a fortune teller i can't tell when those stupid school stuff will come my way.. if the assignments are so easy to do, i'd have finish 'em by now and going out with you.. but nooooo, you just keep insisting that i keep using "HOMEWORK!" excuse because im TOO lazy to get my ass out.. and that because of "HOMEWORK!", i deserve starving the whole day while she's out stuffing herself with thosai.. >.< she better come home with some food, no, LOTS of food, or else i'll hang myself before i die of starvation. nah. kidding. the most i'll do is just survive on packets of WANGWANG till tmr. okay that aside.. :) birthdaysBIRTHDAYSbirthdays!!! excited?? those birthday ppl lah.. me?? ummm no? LOL in some ways i do lah.. in the other ways i don't.. there are some things i don't think is necessary but what the hell, if thats' what keeps yall happy (and not complaining yall deserve better=.=) then, fine,whatever~ :) im smiling.. see -> :) <- smiling~ hahahahahahaha~ seriously, what is UP with me today~ ^^ ohhhh, all the videos i haven't watch~~~ damn school.. so because of "quotequote", i better get back to work.. that is, if i can figure out what work i have to do.. ~Ciao *begins to ransack room* 3月26日 angry?i'll start from the starting of the day: second to arrive as usual, fifi being already there.. then, she asked about shar and i don't know because i didn't msg anyone that morning.. the rest of the gang came and we already thought shar not cming lah. maz didn't turn up. we didn't expect her to anw.. moved to the parade square,saw the familiar bag and just ignored. said bb.. aft MOTHER TONGUE she was at the bottom of the stairs with asha. i purposely sang loudly(dun ask me why i sang) so that she knows im cming down the stairs.. she was facing out to the Pard.Sq and asha was facing.. i walked slowly past her to give her time to turn to me in case she want to say something. but nooooooooo, she give the "teruna" look and continued looking away with that "im-angry-and-im-showing-it" face. i cursed -umm- *something* and just walked away lah. i was fuming already and i don't know exactly the reason why but i just knew i was angry after seeing her. after recess, i came back and found the MSN book on my table like she can't even pluck up the courage to give it to me face-to-face. i didn't expect her to write a single word inside and yep, she didn't. but. something else was there. a letter. on the front, it said: " To: JENSY Jinjja mianhaeyo! saranghae yeongwonhi, mazidah" (Pls let all of JENSY to read)" wahhh i see the in front already, my anger started to build up more and more sia. didn't she freaking READ the letter?!?!?!?!?!?!?! what? she expect eunice to know what seh wrote in korean meh.. JENSY konon,huh. Inside: " I don't know what to say. I know that i am wrong. But i've been trying my best to change. It is just that I think it is far too slow for you guys. Ever since before the holiday started, I've been trying my best. It's just that at some point in time i tend to make blunders. Or you may say; forget. I've been living with this attitude for many years. So i think it won't be too soon for me to change to be someone who you guys want me to be. I realize that my happiness turned out to be a disturbance to you all. Therefore, I tried being more 'emo' but i guess dat turned out to irritate you guys more. And about my voice. I know its loud. But im born to have a loud voice. Even when im at home, i tend to talk loudly when get excited. And im sorry that i talk too loudly and my denseness is a great hindrance to your moods. Im sorry that my denseness causes you guys to be so unhappy. P.S: If you think you can wait for me to change, than pls do But if not, feel free to move on without me. I don't think I can be of any joy in the group, as i've caused many of you to be unhappy. Therefore, i've chosen to keep away from you guys, so that i don't make you all irritated with me. mianhaeyo! jinjja mianhaeyo! haengbokhabnida! (dunno if spelling correct. Be happy always) Last note: i can't take it when someone says that im a lier without telling what is it i've lied about. Or even when i havent talked to her yet. L.O.V.E => sarang=> jaejoong =>chingu Signature we're not asking MAZIDAH to change a LOT. we never ask her to change a LOT. we just want her to change as in adapt to us. IF she say "we say her can,but she cnt say me" then, why don't we just COMPROMISE? if she adapt/change, we'll change/adapt too. MAZIDAH said she is trying her best to change even though it's too slow for us. TELL US. how did you change? MAZIDAH said she went 'emo' because her "happy" is irritating. like, heloooo we didn't tell you to be "emo". we told you to CUT DOWN on your happiness.. 'cutting down' and 'emo' is waaayyy different. we didn't want you to be someone who's different. change, yes, means being a little bit different for the better. "different" itself? that's totally NOT what we're asking for. yes, we know you're sorry but "sorry" is really a word that needs to be said in person. in PERSON. "if u tink...can wait...pls do.." we didn't say we wouldn't wait. but how long will it take to show us that lil bit of change we want to see so much?? 1 week? 1 month? 1 year? it's just that tiny bit of change we want to see. so we can see you've made an effort. keeping away from us doesn't make anyone happy either. and liar is spelt with an "a". anw, paused for while to go view jos's blog. give her a chance? For what? to change? give her a chance to change slowly? I DON'T KNOW. we told her time and again don't do this because ...don't do that because... and we gave her time to absorb all those things and for her to understand us that's why we told her in the first place. so in the future, she won't do things that'll irritate us because she'll still don't know us. when it didn't seem to SINK in her head, we told her she really need to. she said she don't know "how to change coz i'm totally clueless" a confrontation and a letter later, and we ended up fighting over this whole fcking issue. i think i know why im this angry. the reasons,the explanations are inconsistent. excuses, shoot backs are from the last time, when we were "confiding" to each other. WHAT ARE WE ARGUING ABOUT IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?! she keep saying her, you keep saying her, i keep saying both of you and then we all say one another. like what bullshit is this?? aren't we supposed to solve this freaking shit? and not come up with new arguments everytime? friends are supposed to go through thick and thin together, why are we turning our backs on them? friends are supposed to accept one another for what they are,no? so why are we fighting over her attitude? WHY DID WE FIGHT? im freaking confused and angry at the same time and im not rational anymore. i don't know. I DON"T FUCKING KNOW... like, im tired of this.. yeah i know, as if it's not tiring all of you who're involved.. but. i empathize with her. (empathize means knowing how a person feel because you yourself have been through it) i know how it feels like to feel so wrong and not know what's wrong. i know how it feels like to feel all of your friends have deserted you. i know how it feels, alright.. but. im angry/frustrated with her. figuring out what's wrong is really not so hard. ask the RELEVANT people(and not your sis who have NTH to do with all this). this tests your EQ,people. how you handle emotional situations. TALKING it over with us four is not really that bad. fine, if one or two don't feel like talking but just sit there for the sake of our friendship. sooner or later, all the stuff will come out. i personally don't CARE if anyone cry at this type of moments cause i know i will. im a crybaby, i accept it but if crying does make all the stuff come out, why not? like freak, wth am i talking about now. i just.. just want us to talk it over.. without anyone huffing and walking off.. i want no hard feelings THAT IS ALL. it's really sad when i think about it. i don't know it's just so sad. i don't want friendships that break. even though i may be angry, no matter how angry i may be, i would never ever want a friendship to break. never. but if no one takes a step forward, then, *shrug* if pride matters more than our friendship, then... if you rather throw away you friendship rather than changing to keep it, then.. i can't say anything. 3月23日 mood swing?what a fine,fine day.. ..to start doing homework.. gahhh~ so far so good.. my e. maths, chem and english is done.. ENGLISH!! at last, something we're doing that I think is worthwhile.. rather than going through words associated with the heart, like what the hell is that man?? we're not going to be filling in the blanks for the word: "heart-throb" during exams, ya know.. anw, all that i've left with is malay project entries.. i hope there won't be any checking tomorrow because i havent assembled the scrapbook yet.. ^^ so other that that, i'm quite quite free.. *^^* oh, the joy!! ^^ oh! while doing my el assignment i've managed to watch a quite clear fancam of the dbsk boys singing "Beautiful You" omggg that song is LOVE, i tell you!! i repeated the vid like 4 or 5 times.. though yunho looks quite girly in there, but the hip thrusting is not girl stuff, i tell ya!! *faints* and junsu's voice~~ *dieeessssss* pure goodness.. here's the clear fancam..the audis's a bit schkksckk though.. ^^: if you just wanna hear the audio without the schkkkschkk sounds, here's a rip from the concert.. they've done something to the audio so the boy's voices are quite clear.. *^^*: now im a happy fangirl again!! *^^* hope the boys are having a good time performing there.. wherever 'there' is.. *^^* now onto the less-than-happy stuffs: on the bus last thursday, the atmosphere wasn't so light anymore.. the attempts to make conversation failed.. okay, so maybe i told her a bit too harshly, but it's the truth alright. like shar said, eveyone can't always be easy on her and that includes me too, no matter how long i've been easy on you.. i've been frustrated too, you know. i've been thinking: why can't everything be so nice and peaceful like last year?? that's because this is life. life is never nice and peaceful. well,heck, if she thinks everyone's turning her back on her just because of something seemingly trivial, then go ahead. if she thinks that her faults are nothing compared to ours, if she thinks that our problems are nothing compared to hers, if she thinks we're in the wrong if she thinks we're being unreasonable, well fuck it, then she knows nothing about any of us at all. i don't know what's wrong with her or what's wrong with us. why last year we could get along, and now, it's like our ties are just barely there.. why issues like temper, moods are being brought up when we could cope with it last year. why every matter is like a test of our friendship. it's so weird. i also don't know why im brooding over this suddenly when i should be comforting my crying mom in her room, when my dad's gone to who-knows-where, when my brother is insensitive enough to not know what's happening around the house. like what the fuck, man. should i be happy, sad or just not care about anything at all? freak. 3月21日 cont. frm prev post.. muahahaha~ now wasn't that majorly awakening?? eukyakyang.. anw, i didn't get anything harsh.. just a couple of "you think CCA is there for fun ar??" lol yep2 sooo i spent like half of the day re-doing the SS project. im so darn pissed with mrs tan.. like can't you just download the new version.. even if you have a new version, you can view the old versions too.. like she won't lose anything.. freak her, man.. she think re-doing so easy meh?? "you just re-do and send it to me through email by monday,okay?" SOOOO NOT OKAY, you carboon. grrr, but at least im done.. i've added some pics and threw in a couple of my handmade GIFs.. ^^ now, all i need to do is send to the rest of my members and send to her on sunday.. *^^* *pats self on the back* good job. good job. eukyakyang.. noooowww, i need to send yesterday's pics to mrs ng. hahx.. ytd was uber fun.. the flash accidentally went off when she was talking and that resulted in a 5 mins "you're-not-supposed-to-take-pics-unless-i-told-you-so you're-breaking-the-school-rules-if-you-don't-follow-what-i-say so-whoever-took-that-photo-just-now-pls-delete-it-or-else" blahblah.. muahahaha.. but sadly,i deleted the pics cause yeah, im a goody two shoes.. eukyakyang~ hahx.. i gtg.. my butt's flat after sitting for 6 hours straight.. boo-ya!! LOL ~Ciao (this post is a continuation coz the rest of the text aft the pics were cnt be shown so yeah..^^) Caution: Potential Disgusting Pics Present!! LOLtalk about irony~ hahx.. well, as JSM knows, i was stressed near the end of the day because of the dance thingy.. and i had to rush home.. i expected him to stand at the door, a cane in his hand with a very >.< look on his face.. IRONICALLY, he rushed to open the door, giving the act-cute-but-angry look at me, huffed and asked why i was late.. i made all the excuses that made me look as if i made an effort to come home early though i was a lil late.. then he opened the gate and went all, "adik,adik tengok nie. papa da bukak." well in english, he called me,saying he already opened. opened what?? weeellll, he lifted his shirt to tell me what.. or more specifically, he SHOWED me what.. and EW, i tell you, my face surely looked super retarded then cause he just showed me his wounds.. wounds?? well, his operation wounds.. and i even helped him take pics of it okay.. just for some major disgusting fun, i decided to post the pics here.. so make sure you skipped the pics if you get easily gross out by wounds (i do but he's my dad so an exception^^) cause, the wound doesn't look too pretty.. hehe so here goes: the two parts of his back/side that got operated  the one on the left(according to the pic above)  the one on the right  muahahaha~ now wasn't that majorly awakening?? eukyakyang.. anw, i didn't get anything harsh.. just a couple of "you think CCA is there for fun ar??" lol yep2 sooo i spent like half of the day re-doing the SS project. im so darn pissed with mrs tan.. like can't you just download the new version.. even if you have a new version, you can view the old versions too.. like she won't lose anything.. freak her, man.. she think re-doing so easy meh?? "you just re-do and send it to me through email by monday,okay?" SOOOO NOT OKAY, you carboon. grrr, but at least im done.. i've added some pics and threw in a couple of my handmade GIFs.. ^^ now, all i need to do is send to the rest of my members and send to her on sunday.. *^^* *pats self on the back* good job. good job. eukyakyang.. noooowww, i need to send yesterday's pics to mrs ng. hahx.. ytd was uber fun.. the flash accidentally went off when she was talking and that resulted in a 5 mins "you're-not-supposed-to-take-pics-unless-i-told-you-so you're-breaking-the-school-rules-if-you-don't-follow-what-i-say so-whoever-took-that-photo-just-now-pls-delete-it-or-else" blahblah.. muahahaha.. but sadly,i deleted the pics cause yeah, im a goody two shoes.. eukyakyang~ hahx.. i gtg.. my butt's flat after sitting for 6 hours straight.. boo-ya!! LOL ~Ciao 3月16日 dudududu~eukyakyang luckily, the past two days have been sunny so i won't whine much about the rain todaayyy~~~ *^^* teehee.. i've managed to complete english yesterday.. i know, pathetic right?? lol but i totally forgot there was tuition ytd until my mom reminded me.. *^^* like i predicted, i had no mood to do homework at all after the a.maths questions like =.=" but! i kicked myself in the butt (don't ask me how i did that; i just can ^^) and managed to complete the 2 book reviews and letter-writing.. believe me, i've never found english such a burden until yesterday.. and how do you think i felt after doing the reviews on foolscap and priya replied my msg a few hours late saying, " review do in ex. book" =.=" so much for the hard work.. now i need an ex. book.. aigoo.. but NVM, today is another day.. i have 8 h and 54 mins to finish up everything.. i still have chem and others.. i thought of doing chem but it was 11 at night and my brain was screaming "ENOUGH CRAP ALREADY!!" so i decided to give a rest.. but i had trouble sleeping and ended up waking up today, feeling really sore.. i looked at myself in the mirror, and GUH,i really should get that eye-bag reduction cream.. >.< hahx.. heard eileen/sookyung unnie sing and quite nice whatt~ joscelin, u have something wrong with your ears lahh.. hahx.. i never heard Taeyeon's If really closely before and since i heard your sis sing and it sounded quite nice i've started listening.. it's on repeat already~ *^^* but, one thing that really spoils this song was my right speaker.. yeaterday, suddenly, it got soft and my dad tried testing its sound and out came a pathetic little squeak~ all the while after that, i felt like my right ear's gone deaf because the sound only came out mostly from the left speaker.. and NOW, the right speaker keep making these retarded "schkkksschsscchhkkschkschksskkkkscchkk" sounds.. lol and the sound keep being balanced and unbalanced,like im on a roller coaster sound ride, all the sounds fighting against the other side.. =.= eh, wan be spoilt go be spoilt lahh.. keep making those "schkkksschsscchhkkschkschksskkkkscchkk" sounds at least,don't spoil my ears lehhh.. >.< oohh the rain stopped.. good then.. i can concentrate on my work peacefully.. since the weather may just switch my moods, i better go do homework before i don't have more urges.. i have 8h and 29 mins to complete 'em sooooooooooooooooooooo looking forward to it.. not. ~Ciao i can never hold hands with somebody,holding my head up high. i've accepted that fact. but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt me when you keep teasing me and "eee"-ing at it. accepting doesn't make it all better, you know. so pls shut it. 3月13日 for finger warm ups~another dreary day~ gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ now i just realise what a lazy poop i am.. like in my prev entries, i keep pushing the work to "tomorrow" which is today but i'll end up pushing to "tomorrow" when i'll have no time to do and thus, using the excuse "no time",i'll end up again pushing it to "tomorrow".. "=.=" like argh, even im frustrated myself at this annoying laziness of mine.. >.< so the question of the week, WHEN am i going to finish all of the homework which includes: Chem Essay + wksht Malay project 2 A.Maths log wkshts(40 qns) EL book review + letter choose one of the following: a) tomorrow(ha!) b) weekend (maybe~) c) on the day the hmwk is dued ( hmm~ sounds good) d) none of the above (hmm~ sounds better!!) *sigh* for now im gonna place my bets on (b) since i have absolutely no faith on rushing hmwk on that day iself and also, i lack experience in doing that and.. it's just not me.. hahx *^^* yeap2 so now, im gonna do research for chem.. maybe doing on atomic bomb.. whoo exciting!! not. especially when it includes 500-600 words.. oh, how could this be a problem when a brilliant writer like me(ahem) could write up to 1000 words in 1h?? weeelllllll~ that's because this essay doesnt require the use of imagination and sappy scenarios this essay requires the intelligent mind to paraphrase(*gasp*), use own words(*louder gasp*) and make it as interesting as possible.. (*choke on saliva and faints*) ahem. anw, i hope it'll be as easy as what jason told me.. that's the reason why i chose it on the first place.. easy and easy to make it interesting... just write it like this " people create bomb, fly over the desired location, drop the bomb, people die, and then.... -end of story-" now, wasn't that interesting???  . . . . .  okay im crapping again.. but guhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ so MUCH hmwk~ and mrs tan still havent reply to my email.. like COME ON~ she said she'll be checking her email every night and i sent it ytd.. like HOW MUCH MORE TIME DO YOU NEED, YOU CARBOON?!?!?! *ahem* hahx.. it's realllyy freezziinnggg in my room here~ but! CoolKTime is on so what the helll~ ^^ i really need to keep my fingers warm so i'll just type whatever comes to mind.. anw, shar and maz went out.. hahahahahaha~ and shar almost kena ketok by maz.. sometimes that gerl ar... *shakes head* LOL but anw, she had results from her day out and reallyyyy proud of her~ muahahahahahahaha~ but anw, i enjoyed the day at home too.. even though the cake had a little earthquake going on, it was still a hearty birthday by my standards.. ooh.. "Dancer in The Rain" on radio!! teehee i love the MV it's so niicceee luhh~ noww~ tomorrow's the class outing~ yippee!! even though Jos had made up 95% of her mind not to go because of the weather (darn you weather!) i hope she'll suddenly change her mind because she realize what a pitiful being i am,going there alone~ *nudge nudge* LOL but if she still doesn't want to, nevermind then.. i'll just go there and be the retard i am.. LOL now now.. iceskating? in this weather? wouldn't it be a little -umm- cold?? eukyakyang~ apparently, wearing 71 socks will break a world record.. wearing 71 socks wouldn't be a problem, worse come to worse, people will just think i have swollen feet..hahx but problem is, where am i going to find 71 socks? anyone wanna lend me?? eukyakyang~ there isn't much exciting news about dongbang so yeah, i miss being all fangirly.. *sad* hahx.. but at least, there'll be less "you're worshipping koreans!" comments.. lol so yeah,look on the bright side,girl.. *^^* okaayy~ i think i have.. >.< the stupid language lessons have started!! *plugs ears* now where was i?? oh yeah.. i was saying, i think i have enough finger warm ups.. and i should really focus on my chem essay.. so yeah.. ~Ciao P.S: KEOJITMAL~~~~~~ (on coolktime,duh) ^^ 3月12日 it's raaaiiiinnniinnggg~ ^^what a dreary,dreary day~ it's all rain and no shine.. and i have the flu.. hahx.. should be feeling sian but nooo~ i don't ^^ somehow, since today's my dad birthday, i've decided to be really smiley and take NOTHING to heart~ Jos still deciding whether to go this friday or not hahx.. i confirm going.. i still need to blend with the rest of the class, especially since im the only malay girl in e2.. *^^* about what to wear, maybe a little something of this and that.. but im not gonna go all out,tryingto impress them.. they might be revolted instead.. lol played reversi with jos, quite good leh she.. i was like "no,go there.." n"no go here" whenever i see her piece going all over the screen.. hahx.. but i improved a lot leh second game.. hahx i keep insisting i improve.. but i still lost.. eukyakyang~ i still havent finish watching line up.. the first time i watched, i seriously no mood to go all spazzy and the second time, my group members came.. hahx.. maybe today.. aww shoot. i just remembered i havent start on my malay and english and had decided yesterday to finish both of em today.. hahx.. the video can wait then.. OH!! the what-what mouse song feat eun hye!! hehe sending to me right now.. hehe esnips failed me this time but nvm, i have joscelin!! dudududu~ my parents are on date again~ this time to the handphone service centre.. her LG viewty got sth wrong.. haha!! probably from the drop it had a week ago.. lol~ tsktsktsk~ at least mine is (almost) shockproof.. hehe~ guh~ INTERNET.. bdhwjgfes.ulagfcueiwlGEWUI stop losing connection already!! +.+ i figured i must be damn irritating for kping signing in and out.. and poor ppl who had these pop ups on who's cmin online hahx dududududududu~ it's all because of stupid ares.. fine then i'll be going off so to keep the bandwidth free.. ^^ and also, there's mee goreng waiting for ME!! *^^* ~Ciao EDIT: I know how to make a screen cap now!! whoots~ TQ,JOS!!! hahx.. videos,here i come!! *^^* 3月10日 Temptation Of The Wolveswahh~ long time i never watch this type of movie sia.. SAD ones.. T_T the starting was quite mundane uhz.. the taesung is soooooooooooooooo good looking,omg~ lol though at some angles his eyes a bit mismatched.. eukyakyang~ well typical fights over a gerl.. but then, when the relation revelation came and taesung was crying i was "gaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh~ EULJIMA!!!" something about seeing other ppl cry always makes me cry and that includes KKOTMINAM!!! hahx then it was heart wrenching to see him act as if all he said before were nonsense.. omg, i know exactly how he feels luhh.. i mean, i feel for him.. like argh at that moment i felt like just going up to him, give one big hug and say "it's okay" but, if i do that in real life, he's probably be o.0 with a big ? on his head.. hahx.. but the ending was quite confusing hmm need to clear that up with jos.. hahx but she a bit busy with sth else uh.. hmm.. oh well, there's still friday.. ^^ if anyone decided to watch this movie, then go ahead!! 2 thumbs up!! no spoilers here either ^^ guh i LOVE that movie.. THANK YOU, JOSCELIN MAGGIE!!! with the purpose of this nonsensical post done, im going off~ ~Ciao 3月9日 lalalala~LOL~ now something happy to end my day with~ hahx.. for two days a bunch of 3e2 peeps have been conversing on msn and lots of crap came out.. including SPAM!! LOL and mr nathan's motto: spam the spamming spammer like wth?? unknowingly, i have unfortunately added weixuan but *shrugs* anything lahh.. not necessarily must chat rite.. ^^ hahx me and jos have been going against what he msn-ed *high fives* go girl! lol anw anw, i arrived late for tuition again late by a mere 5 mins?? i wasnt late before that i reached the bus stop at 12.30 and the bloody bus came at 12.50 poor me waited for 20 lonnngg mins~ lol but today's session wasn't quite so focused like the last two because it's the HOLIDAYS yaw!! and joscelin~ u cheered up alright right?? lol her mom damn cute can.. her bye2 is soo weird lahh den jos and her sister laughed it off den her mom went all high pitchy "Bye Bye..See You Soon~" lol and edited: someone is stalkerish scary yet so cute at the same time uhz.. lol anw anw, tmr's the start of the holidays and im looking forward to tmr~ eating lunch with jos,weibin,donoven and rongyong even though im an absolute extra, donoven and weibin have ever so graciously welcomed me.. LOL i still havent do any hmwk never even TOUCHED a single sheet of paper.. so yeah, the holidays are off to a great start!! *^^* and YEAH, if i WORSHIP koreans, then every single one of us do WORSHIP them too.. bullshit, i know. ^^ EDIT: for those who have read my unedited post and have been disturbed by it, i apologise. -.-" for those who have read my edited post and are still not happy, don't bother me pls. ^^ 3月8日 Fucking shitty CRAPokaayyy~ he just made my heart ached. what the FUCK, i DON'T FUCKING WORSHIP KOREAN PEOPLE OKAY?!?! im really fucking sick and tired of arguing about your dislike against MY interest in k-pop if it makes me happy, if it makes me look forward to come back home, if it makes me look forward to finishing all of my homework, why should you FUCKING trying to stop me?? are you embarrassed?? are you at a loss on how to react when ppl ask you "who are these ppl in your daughter's room" ? are you really ashamed that your daughter is interested in people who, in majority, eat DOGS?!?! are you that FUCKING disturbed by the fact that I spent hours staring at the computer just because of them? you always put them down you always put me down you're always asking why am I always wasting my time? why am I always doing non-beneficial activities?? why am I always 'worshiping' them when i should be worshiping my God? why am i always embarrassing him by putting posters of boys in my room? why this,why that why in the world did i got into k-pop??? why? I WANT TO. I HAVE TO. i need them as a distraction of how unhappy i am.. i need them to make me forget how insecure i feel.. i need them to occupy my mind when im bored i NEED them to escape from the reality.. what do you know? you have lots of activities.. bowling,soccer,cycling.. filling every minute of your day, if not work or sleep or bills.. you have been a teenager before, like DUH but your time and MY time is different VERY DIFFERENT there's no use comparing your A's and B's with mine and then blaming it all on dbsk when both of us perfectly know that YOU'RE contradicting yourself.. as long as i bring home good average grades, just leave my FUCKING interests alone.. they didn't do anything to you.. if you want, u can call me 'stupid' or 'brainless' WHATEVER just don't slam anyone who is not involved DIRECTLY. life is made of choices. if you want to criticize anything, be it my friends or my interests, they're all my choices. so leave them FUCKING alone. 3月3日 randommiesyeah.. so he came home all shouting like a madman just because a stack of letters were left rotting in the mailbox.. like come on, just a stack of papers lah.. and no need to scream your head off right?? and yay, because of him, i was so effing fed up that i spilled a quarter tupperware of sugar and i had to mop it all up.. poor me:) hahx.. but on the bright side, i managed to get rid of all the stuff that's bugging me today.. next week's are the hols.. time to enjoy!! i realised today maybe we're not that bad after all.. so what if the rest are sucha tight knit lot?? we have our own love binding us together eh?? ^^ now, i just need to fork out $22.. hmm, where should i start digging?? *looks at money bank with evil grin* hehehehehe~ *looks at parents* .... *rubs hands in glee* lol oh well, some vid of dbsk is just subbed.. dammit,still havent watch happy togther soo off to dl it and watch happy together!! ~Ciao^^ 3月1日 CIP is LOVELOVELOVEwhee~ CIP was fun,fun FUN!! hahx.. jos woke up late but still managed to get to sch.. thks to who?? LOL it rained and we were stuck at school for like 1h?? ms james was going on and on about the dos and don'ts like ugh -.- and ppl start calling me "NadhiraHA" +.+ all because someone vandalized my name on the roster board LOL imagine me going, "ANNYEONGHASEYO,CHONEUN NADHIRAHA IMNIDA" like LMAO!! grp members were monitor shuen ray and jia sheen ^^" jason and NEO was like snapping photos like some idiotic perverts and smirking doesn't help them either.. eukyakyang~ LOL couple of ppl were lost omggggg~ lol it's so cute luhh~ we ate maggie tgt and isaac kept calling me Nad hahx guess i need to get used to other ppl other than my jens calling me Nad ^^ the whole bunch of girls and some boys went tgt to tackle blk 658 and it was FUN!! SOme of the residents had dogs and once, jos ran away because after ringing the bell, a dog came running at the door.. but really lah, scary.. LOL wei bin kept flapping his shirt and his belly can see luh, and i was like "nice stomach" which was meant as a sarcastic remark and he was like "thank you thank you" like =.= can?? LOLOLOL then RongYong kept 'stealing' the mags LOL she's cute luhh~ discussed about the 7 princesses.. personally, i dislike michelle chia. hahx.. reason: she's showing off her prettiness and BOOBS whenever she hosts an event example: last year's countdown party and LOOK at what she's wearing (provided you can SEE what she wore) like ugh can?? lol but yeah, ms james was being freaking irritating again after we were done and me and jos were like  all the timebut hahx, really it's FUN!! whoops i gtg wanna join in the watching scary movie "Someone's Behind You" i bet today im gonna have a hard time slping agin LOL ~Ciao |
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