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1月29日 random lahhhh~eukyakyang~ i managed to steal some internet time ^^ hahx.. let's see. Lit. not done.. A. Maths not done.. what else not done.. should be lots lahh~ aigoo.. im soooo freaking tired today that i just HAD to take a little nap.. i need some sleep.. no scratch that, i need SLEEP!!! gaahhhh~ i hate it when ppl point out my dark circles and they ask why.. obviously i don't get enough sleep right?? u cant have expected me to say "oh i got punched ytd and that's why got dark circles.." like =.=" use ur brains can?? aigoo.. Jos emo-ed for awhile because the quilin/guilin/w.e lin lahh keep repeating that her hair not nice.. then i accidentally say in a quite harsh tone, "u want throw tantrum no use lah..cut already right?" then she dno do what lah, she muttered angrily to herself about some papers that fell onto the floor.. hahx.. she like angry herself sia.. ignore lorr~ *^^* then she okay liao.. i nearly went into 'depressed' mode but then i decided later ppl say i arrogant face haha so i didn't.. *^^* personally, her hair quite nice mah.. it's just that she's too used to long hair and dno how to style, that's why she felt it's a bit awkward.. A midsummer's night dream.. i havent even TOUCHED that bloody book.. the face on the front pg is so scary uhh.. lol.. we're lucky that we don't have a book test like they do in america it's like you have to read a book all by yourself by a deadline.. on the deadline, there'll be a test and like what BingZheng told me, basically you're doomed if your memory's not good.. LOL listening to the piano versions of dbsk songs, i wish i can play piano.. it's like a very impressive thing if you can play piano.. wahhh~ then u read all the notes like one pro.. LOL then your fingers are very nicely poised and danced like ballerinas on the piano.. wahh, i wish i could play.. i WAS tempted to ask my dad to teach me how to play guitar/bass.. but then, his patience is not really one of a teacher's.. just half an hour, before you know it, all sorts of stuff comes out of his mouth and you'd wish you'd never asked him to teach you at all.. ^^ yupp~ so that's all i gotta say.. the recent dbsk vids all are not subbed so im not bothering to watch cause i won't understand anw.. *^^* so until next time, ~Ciao 1月26日 stupid~i'll start the entry with a reallllllllyyyy happy thing.. though it's a weeny bit late, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM HERO JAEJOONG!! Hahx i wasted an sms this morn cause of this reminder to the girls.. but oh well, i probably busted my 500 limit already so one more sms couldn't hurt right?? arghhhhh someone is frying CHICKEN right now and im dyyyiiiinnnnggggggg of hunger hahx but yeah, I GOT CHEESECAKE,BAYBEH~ yumyumyumyumyum.. but sadly, NOT enough for a growing lady like me.. *^^* aigoo.. i would really LOVE one of those fat chicken wings i saw ytd at hg mall right NOW.. now for the random stuffs, im at my 6th pg already.. my hand now officially hates me.. LOL like i predicted, 80% of what i wrote is total total crap.. hahx.. i have no more 'creative writing skills' in me left to continue typing here.. i need to RECHARGE.. and speaking of recharge, im gonna head upstairs to eat something~ this is a really very short and stupid entry.. gahhhh.. ~Ciao 1月25日 uhhhhh~eukyakyang~ i'd never thought i'd be this umm 'busy' and it's like what, the start of the year?? it's back to the 'updating-once-a-wk' schedule again.. aigoo.. but school's bearable, i guess.. minus the two tests that i sooooo totally KNOW i'm gonna flunk with marks like,i dunno, 6/20?? yeah that's how bad i am.. *^^* and the fact that i still can smile and laugh like im totally not stressed inside and wanting to pull my hair outta my roots, that's quite a feat eh?? ^^ DARKNESS EYES totally bowled me over.. it could be said a LITTLE bit similar to tri-Angle with all the violins going on at the background.. wait a minute, were there violins in tri-angle?? hmmm.. can't really rmb but what the hell.. the POINT IS, it's total total fab.. and what's more fab is, i've got to know a dear changminnie lover who's in PEICAI!! i mean, i was like WOW, so near?!?! teehee i take the bus that stops so FREAKING NEAR that school and . . . i'd least expect it but hey, forget the distance TVXQ LOVERS HWAITING!! yeah, so i gotta fill like 10 pgs in the BOOK and ohhh boy, am i looking forward to it.. *^^* EXPECT CRAP PEOPLE!! gotta go now.. pizza's waiting fer me,yaw!! ~Ciao 1月20日 TVXQ <33gosh.. for now, i'm gonna label yoochun's voice as the most emotionally powerful. FOR NOW. because his voice at the start of Kissしたまま、さよなら is . . . . i cant really describe it specifically.. i really love this type of songs.. it just gives me the feeling of sitting beside the window,my knees up to my chin, staring out at the wonderful scenery outside (which consists of a playground but wth,the mood matters more) feeling this overwhelming appreciation for all that i have and yet a feeling of sadness at the same time as if something is missing. swaying side to side as i always do, close my eyes and indulge in my daydreams. there are times you would feel this way right?? i remembered listening to love in ice in that situation when things at home were a bit tough. the song makes me feel like that again. Junsu,as always, just give me shivers with his voice. Jae shocked me for awhile there, with the sudden "sayonara" but i loved it. somehow, that tone of voice gives me a really good idea on how his -umm- older singing voice will be.. hahx.. 20 Jan. their album will be released on 23rd right?? "lonely people~" gahhhhhh~ i love you guys ~~~~ GACK!!!! TVXQ IN ACCIDENT?!?!?! sheesh.. just when i was all ~_~ over their song but anw, aigoo.. ish2 they were alright they just crashed into a cab.. but REALLY, IDIOTIC FANS, at least ensure THEIR safety FIRST before you get all selfish and ram into their vehicle!! we CARE IF you HURT our boys in any way!! Cassies are NOT to be dealt lightly alright?! i do hope they are perfectly fine cause esmiux reported "Jae and Min a little bit sore" aigoo.. oh well.. im trusting the ppl in charge of them to take care of them properly.. just can hope for them.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ anw, i don't know if shar knows about this, but have you heard of Kay Emily Moon?? A lot of soompi ppl put her name in their siggies.. anw, she died on 2nd Dec, i tink, of an illness. she was well-known in soompi and YT for her debates. apparently, JUNSU-SSHI knows about her condition and sent a message to her, "Don't ever give up and keep living. Even if it's just one hour left to live, keep living it with joy. I'm grateful for her love and please do keep fighting to survive. I hope she's getting better. Tell her, I am proud to have a fan like her." it's sweet, ain't it?? i'm really really glad to know that DBSK knew about her. I read her farewell msg on soompi and even though i don't know her AT ALL, i cried. Just knowing that she wrote that while anticipating her time is unbearable for me because i can NOT imagine being in a situation like that. KAY, MAY YOU R.I.P!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ EUKYAKYANG!! i managed to find the video with full audio of Kissしたまま、さよなら LOVE THOSE PPL!! now i have the full mp3!! once again, I LOVE YOU RESOURCES!! oh and junsu actually sings "long way before" and not "lonely people" hahx.. one time i actually thought he sang "nong way pipore~" and that set me laughing so effing hard!! pelat betol eh diorang.. eukyakyang~ oh well off to put the song in my mp3,hp and send it to my online friends.. i can't believe i made friends just through replying requests for songs.. eukyakyang~ the power of internet.. LOL ~Ciao 1月19日 ^_^at last, the weekend. u don't know how MUCH i LONGED for the two precious days of the week. aigoo~ but i managed to spend like half the day doing nothing useful. woke up feeling crappy, and my mood went downhill again and again from the endless scoldings of my parents >.< hahx.. thk god for the guy who can't stop sneezing and making me laugh like one idiot bless him:) i took bursary too at nanyang JC i was practically falling asleep.. if not for the screechy shrills of the tchr i would have fallen sleep lorr.. (and i SAW YOU,SHUEN RAY!! *^^*) it's the first time a bursary award went quite fast the guest of honour arrived quite punctually they said out the pupils' names (FINALLY someone who knows how to pronounce my name!!^^) and that was it. but otoh, no refreshments. :( it rained just as the thing ended and we had to rush to the motorcyle and i was keeping the front of my shirt away from my chest all the way back home.. started on my hmwk.. so far so good.. LOGARITHMS!! INDICES!! STANDARD FORM!! i love it!! hahx.. i love it because it's so easy and it makes me feel smart!! contrary to simul. eqns of course, that made me feel like one dumb donkey -.- LOL how many times must i complain about that?? eukyakyang~ testS cming up next week need to revise.. hmmm.. OH!! reminds me.. i still need to make a blog for malay.. *runs off* ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *runs back* done!! hahx i've never really thought about this but really a blog URL with ur full name and class really deserves the 'Lamest Blog URL EVER' award.. sheesh.. *blues* i wanna change my background picture.. hmm should i stick to yunho pics or dbsk or mixed?? hmmmm~ oh well.. i think i'll just bear with it a lil longer.. i don't have much time as i did in the hols to make a wallpaper.. darn you, school!! but, im getting used to it though i can barely restrain myself from just sprinting off to the bus stop and take the first 147 bus that comes that's how tired i am. but i'll endure, just for you guys. :) yeah, i was thinking if yu er becomes a part of US, then would our JENSM change?? if it did, it'll be MY JENS.. hahx.. somehow i like it.. blame it on coffee prince, "My Chan" now yuer has become "My FiFi" Maz "My Dah" (or also "My Dar"/"Maidah".dpends on how u spell it eh??*^^*) Shar "My Shar"(hmm not much difference huh?? ^_^) or it can be "My Rah"(but weird2 lah) Eunice "My Nice" (pronouced my-NICE or my-niEce???) Jos "My Lin"(hahx reminds me of vioLIN) LMAO i think i better think of what to do for my concept map rather than nicknames.. hahx.. 8pm now.. 4 more hours to the last day of my 'bliss'.. aigoo.. ~Ciao ~*I'm*in*a*PURPLE*LINE*frenzy*~ *^_^* 1月13日 !!o.0!!aww, man it's sunday already?? aigoo.. i just wasted the day again.. Jos feeling sick and may not come tomorrow oh well, i'll just bring something to do then,in case eukyakyang~ The Purple Line DL link spazzes provided wasn't workable for me and i was like, SHUCKS!! but yay for me when i managed to rip it from a video.. muahahaha.. i love my resources *contented sigh* BAE SEUL GI!! at first, when ppl started to pair her up with yunho, i was a teensy bit jealous.. ok, a lot.. LOL but now, i kinda admire her a LOT because i just started to dl her songs and i was impressed with her voice.. and the SONGS.. wow, incredibly catchy.. her ballads are great as well.. it's hard to find a girl whose voice can match ballads as well as R&B.. though her voice can be said to be a little bit lazy i believe she just made the voice like that and it's not naturally LIKE that.. LOL anw, i just broke a promise..  i promised to myself that i wouldn't listen to anymore previews until the full songs are out but i just CAN'T FRICKN RESIST!!!!!!!!!!! man, are those two songs AWESOME!! it's really different from the other songs they sang eukyakyang!! they make me so much more excited than i already am!! MAZIDAH I WANT THE MSN BOOK TOMORROW!!!!!!! I NEED TO SPAZZ SOME MORE!!!! IF YOU DON'T BRING, YOU'RE SOO DEAD!!! ARASSEO?!?! hehe.. just kidding~ but really, she held that book one day too many.. GAHHHH~ !!o.0!! my brain's jammed again.. i'm just gonna give up can?? hahx.. certainly not, of course.. something's wrong with me again.. i'm answering my own qns.. LOL wait, i think i ALWAYS answer my own qns.. aigoo.. LOL ^this is what happens when my brain is jammed^ WHERE'S THE TRAFFIC POLICE?!?!?! ROFL GAWD, i BETTER get off the comp now before i start blabbering like an idiot again ~Ciao 1月12日 PURPLE LINE SPAZZLOL i guess i'm not so SMART afterall!! muahahahaha~ FINALLY GOT ROUND TO WATCHING PL PREVIEW and im like !!o.0!! I CANNOT FREAKING TAHAN YUNHO'S "YO!!" omo omo omo omo omo omo omo omo omo~ ROFL LMAO i can't believe that i'm saying this but i really CRINGED when i heard Yunho's too-nasally-for-his-face-but-gd-for-the-song voice gahhhhhh~ frankly, im really half-half for his voice.. i like it but i dislike it at the same time. Sure it fits the song and sounds GREAT with the song but.. muahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~ gosh, i really need TIME to get over that OTOH, the MV was FREAKING FREAKING FREAKING HOT!! my brain is so freaking jammed from the spazziness that erupted since like 2 mins ago.. aside from Yunho's voice, i really love his purple-streaked (or purple light shining on it/w.e) hair!! like WOAH!!! his long hair didn't look all scraggly like it did in the photoshoots though changminnie's hair looks like the one he had in sky. and i'm not really fond of that hairstyle.. anw, the camera angles,movements is JUST FREAKING RIGHT for the song~ and i don't think the purple lines looked weird personally, i think it's cool.. eukyakyang!! and the CHOREOGRAPHY!!! *fans self but still sweating* *goes running to aircon* *but still sweats* HURRY AND RELEASE ALREADY!!!!!!!!! 1.41 MINS IS NOT ENOUGH!!! and YES, i saw lots of JAEHO mainly during the dance part.. eukyakyang!! i'm so incoherent right now~ somebody, SLAP ME!! *dizzy from spazzing* !!*~_~*!! ~~ onto school, it's getting tough for me too. SIMULTANEOUS QUESTIONS!!! i don't know since WHEN i started to SUCK at THAT!! i think it's from all that playing during the hols and wth?? the tchrs didn't even refreshed our minds and just started plunging into the subject. i can't even finish a simple 3 QNS hmwk!! WHAT THE HELL'S WRONG WITH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ and now, 10 QNS of Simul. Eqns!! i'm soooo dead~ JOSCELIN, YOU"RE MY ONLY HOPE!!! but i'm not sure if i should disturb u since you're pretty stressed out yourself now aigoo~ i'm starting to wish i hadn't taken literature i mean, the one thing i really LOATHE about school is the amount of PROJECT WORK~ it's not that i hate to work in a group it's just that some ppl may not contribute and the presentations . . . . . thk god, mrs yu let me and jos be considered as a group. and now i'm afraid I will be the one not contributing enough.. but i'll persevere, won't i? even if i fail at every subject, i'll still work hard. even if i feel my brain has worked enough and can't go on any longer, i'll just close my eyes and take a break. even if i feel that i'm a total failure, i'll force myself to think of my superb(haha) writing skills. even if i feel i'm not worthy enough, i'll just look up and stare into the photo frame my dear shar has made for me, im that worthy for her to make me one.. even if i feel i had not done my best, i'll just do better next time. even if i don't feel wanted, i'll just cuddle up with my pillows, knowing they are the only things that can't run away no matter how close you are to them. even if i feel alone, i'll just remember there might be someone or someTHING behind staring at me AND even if i feel like crying, i'll just cry it all out and be better afterwards. and NOT regret it at all. even if i feel like giving up, even if i feel i can't go on, even if i feel i'm really worn inside out, i'll just let it be. yep,just let it be. let it be until i feel i can go on. let it be until i rest enough. let it be until a bit of resolution seeps into my brain build that tiny bit bigger and bigger until i feel it is enough. Enough to continue. it's human to feel stressed. it's normal to cry when you feel down. no need to feign that you're strong just because you think you have to or you USED to be strong. just be happy when you're happy and be sad when you're sad. save any explanations bacause you DON'T need to explain. AT ALL. i love you.  ~~ *ahem* yep, so that's something for inspiration(i hope, haha) though i may not had done all those but i'll try to comply. it's the same as in EHB, when you THINK you want to eat that particular FOOD, no matter how FULL, no matter how you feel like you're DYING of fullness, once you THINK that you want to eat, your stomach will make space for that FOOD to enter. if you will yourself that you can do it, your brain will make some space, no matter how much -umm- things there are in there. funny how that applies to our mentality too huh? hahx. and to think that i could relate those two matters together, muahahahaha~ i AM smart.. hahx.. but too bad NOT smart enough to finish those 10 QNS~ *groans at the thought of it* LOL right now, it's jammed with spazziness cause i just found out DBSJ EHB IS SUBBED ON YT!!! WHY AM I SO BEHIND?!?!?!?!?! bleagh~ there goes my plans to continue my homework~ EUKYAKYANG!! ~Ciao 1月6日 what a day~ *^^*aigoo i spent like half a day restarting my comp and it's reeaaallllyyyy starting to get frustrating and on top of that, a maths homework was kinda on the 'innovative'/'interesting side.. which i considerably lack so much of.. hmph but oh well, it's over and done with so smiles for the day -or night- ahead!!  watched the rest of ehb and i really needed an inhaler then i mean, WHOA! it was really a laugh-so-much-until-u-could-could-freakin-DIE thing ya know?? i almost choked on the wang-wang(i have no idea how to spell that) i was eating and i ate like one whole big packet of that to accompany me while watching ehb the way the members walked and fell after being spun around 30 times it was really LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL hankyung!! 'eeetjima!' i still remembered him saying that in ep 1 ahhhhhh i really hadn't laughed that much for the loooooongest time *_* anw, RAINBOW!!! i'm guessing this is a rip from radio or something like that cause of the introduction it has a really umm laidback feel but the sound of the bass(??) or the thump thump sound makes my heart thump too i don't like it it's so distracting but since this is quite an unclear version i'll forgo that.. teehee but the most anticipated song(& MV) PURPLE LINE!!!! hahx i still can't forget chunnie's 'i wanna touch myself' (can you??^^) hurry and release alreadyyyyyy~ X.X spazzes already posted up the link for DBSJ EHB but it's tudou. i just hate it cause there are TONS of chinese words and i feel really helpless trying to navigate so i avoid that as much as i could. oh well, since now gomdorii and muishie are subbing ehb vids tgt i guess the DBSJ one would come out faster than i'd expect so i'll just have to wait patiently *sits down and waits like a good innocent kid* eukyakyang~ hahahaha i just realized i have nowhere to save my things cuase my hard drive's gone again aigoo.. guess put in my first drive again uhh.. *shakes head in defeat* i just realised too i hadn't gone in soompi for ages really.. like a ...week? haha thta's really ages laa i bet the thread has gone up like tons of pgs liao lol ~~.. tomorrow i have physics and a maths put the two books together and i can already use it as a mini dumbell SERIOUSLY.. i'm soo not looking forward to tuesday cause i'll have a maths, chem AND phy but it'll just be these three so that's a relief.. ... NOT!! say BYEBYE to back posture i'll be a hunchback in no time *smiles* and there's afternoon classes and then netball after that.. eukyakyang~ it's gonna be a hell of a day. gee, i'm sooo enthusiastic.. ... NOT!! eukyakyang lately i hear so much of 'NOT!!' that i even start using it lol PHYSICS yeogi naneun unda!!! ~Ciao 1月4日 *^^*think. think very hard. think about... . . . . . Yunho oppa!! muahahahahahahahahaha~ i'm being stuuuuuupppiiidddd~ LOL hahx.. shar unnie dearest, thk u for your comment yaw! hahx.. i cheered up alright.. you know me, cry all that, next day quite okay liao. quite lahh.. i hope. LOL *^^* aigoo now i need to check for updates which (un)fortunately increased in the last 3 days hmmm is that a good thing? or a bad one? can't make up my mind.. but good or bad, i'll have time cause there's the WHOLE weekend~ wheee~ i have never looked forward to wkends this much until school reopened and the last three nights, i didn't feel like i slept AT ALL i'm looking forward to waking up tomorrow, feeling all refreshed (think 'sofy' ads ^^) A. maths wasn't so bad, eh?? hahx. so much for getting scolded eukyakyang~ oh and shar, we having same recess for all days but THURSDAYS friday same recesss lah dear today is friday but considering you posted that before today.. *^^* i need to download EHB now that spazzes has posted the links YAY!! now i'll have something to laugh really hard about.. *^^* i just watched suju's proposals(yes,i'm that slow) and i can't freaking stop smiling throughout.. i mean, wow guys are usually the ones to propose and i'm sure it's not,NEVER an easy thing. i'm surprised(PLEASANTLY) that they could come up with all that. and TEUKIE OPPA!!! you are such a fuddy duddy cuddly cutie mature LEADER!! you do look cute and earnest when you said all that but what set me off laughing was he did his habitual hair flipping i mean, imagine that. even when he's proposing(which i doubt will happen soon) he still have the time to flip his hair.. eukyakyang~ GOSH!! 10pm already?!?! need to watch coffee prince!! though i watch liao, wanna watch again.. eukyakyang!! ~Ciao 1月2日 don't read this too >.<first day back to school = happy ?? hmmm... not quite.. met with maz first who started my day with the sound of her voice telling me about the fanfics she read.. though i was a bit dizzy, (i knew she knew i was ^^) hahx.. it was a loooong time since i heard her go on her usual story telling mode *^^* and so meet with the rest blah blah when it was time to sit down, it's just... isanghae~ hurhur.. to not be sitting where 2e1 is to not be sitting where i'm surrounded by JESM to not be shushed by ms hu to be laughing at stupid things like the teacher whatsoever.. LOL i really need to get used to this.. sadly, form teacher is waaaaaayyyy too perky.. saying "okay class!! let's do this today.." " today is going to be a fun day.." blah blah is really a sucky way to get my mood in its stable state.. yawning throughout the lesson and the lessons after that.. with less than nothing to do.. wait, there's no less than nothing. if it's nothing, then there's absolutely nothing less than nothing because then nothing wouldn't be nothing, it would be something!! hahx.. i really like that sentence. it's from Charlotte's web totally dizzying, i know but nevertheless meaningful. hahx.. getting off the topic here.. where was i?? oh yeah, less than nothing to do. ^^ (gonna get a lil emo here) also, a bit annoyed. jos kept saying, "i want shahirah." "aigoo,so sian without shahirah."  i mean, i miss her too ok.. i miss every single one of them who's not with me in that same classroom, within my talking distance, the girls who's not there making fun of the teacher, the girls discussing korean stuffs, the girls who cracks jokes and laughs without care. i want them too. but really, if there's something i can do to have them all back here, in the same classroom, in the same room as us, in the same room as you, i would have done it sooner, even before you start pining for them. now, there's nothing i,WE, can do. they're in a different class, having their lessons. we can still sms them. we can still meet them after school, during recess.. we WILL meet them. then, you can go to shar or whoever for as long as you want.. but in 3e2, there's no one else but me and you. JENSM in 3e2 there's only J and N. i know i said i'll try to be better this year be more outgoing but if it's going to be like this, i feel small, okay?? and that doesn't help, AT ALL, not one BIT i don't know why the fuck tears are rolling down my cheeks right now, but really, it's just. . . hahx. i'm getting emotional here.. *slaps self* yeah, so now, i don't really feel like checking for updates already. gosh, i should have known i should not have . . . *haiz*
a little red firefly,shivering on the little twig, stood on a cold night looking at the clear night sky, mesmerized by the wonderful stars that decorate the vast sky. it glanced at its own end, at the light that barely can be seen, flickering like a decade old lamp. it turned back at the bright shining stars, it looked at the other fireflies, all flying carefreely with mates tailing them, their ends glowing ever-so-brightly, enveloped in a mask of affection and love for each other. the firefly longed to be like them. no, it yearned to be like the stars, glowing everywhere it went, shining upon the whole dark world, lighting up the scene. it glanced back, sadly, at its own end. drops of tears, filled with sorrow, fell. it went back to where it first entered the world, the world it so would dearly loved to light with his own glow, it went back and lay down, staring at the lovely night sky. and when dawn came, it was still staring at the sky, not moving. - Nadhira edit: looking back at what i wrote i didn't erase and not erasing anything but just.. im feeling bitter it's all at me having a low esteem right now ^^ |
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